Hysterectomy Support Group

I had a hysterectomy about four weeks ago. I am only 22 and have way to many medical problems. I did everything i could to avoid having a hysterectomy. I had my first D&C when I was only 19 after I had been bleeding non stop for about six months, the doctors found that I had fibroids. After that I had a normal period for two months and then bled non stop til I had my second D&C at 20. The doctors found Pollips that time and I never stopped bleeding. I continued to bleed and finally doctors told me that a hysterectomy was my only option. I had never had a normal period and for all intensive perposes I had been bleeding since I was twelve because I would only have a couple of days off inbetween cycles. We tried everything from birth control pills, many different ones, to the patches and even the shot didnt stop my bleeding. Now I am a 22 year old female who always dreamed of having children. I cant have children. Everyone says "sure you can, you can always adopt". They dont understand. I wanted to carry the baby. I wanted to feel the life that I created growing inside my body. But that is never going to happen. I feel so empty inside. It is like my life long dream has been ripped from my hands and I can never get it back. Especially this time of year it hurts so bad. Everywhere I look I see children and babies and freinds of the family are giving birth to their babies. And every time I see a baby it is like my heart has been ripped right out of my chest. It hurts so bad. I dont know what to do. I have finally over come the crying everytime i see a baby but I still want to just grab every baby i see and never let go. It is so hard to contain myself. I am so jealous of those that can have babies. I have been majorly depressed ever since my surgery and I have alot of other psychological problems so it is not helping. I just want to be happy agian. I want a baby in my arms. Please if you know how to make the pain go away please tell me.
Posted on 12/23/08, 01:12 pm