High School Stress Support Group

So last year was pretty spectacular. I was friends with basically all seniors and now that they've all graduated and gone off to college, I'm left with out them. I mean, we still talk and all, but it's not the same as seeing them everyday. And even the ones who stayed close, I don't get to see them very often. But there's 4 people that are killing me the most not having them here.

My big brother, Nick, who's 5 hours away and doesn't talk to me much but he talks to everyone else.

My big-brother-like figure, Zack, who acted like a big brother should and was annoying and overprotective but that's okay because we always had fun but bickered like siblings (Nick was always more like the older brother who was like 10 years older, we talked and all, but there was always a little disconnect).

My best friend, Michelle, who did basically everything with me all year and we were attached at the hip basically and we were roomies overseas and all. She's probably the girl I've gotten the closest with ever, and it's really sad not having her around. She would always be at my house and she was basically my sister because of how much time we spent together, so it's weird not having her around constantly.

And finally, my (ex) boyfriend, Tyler. I think that's what he'd be titled as. We still have feelings for each other but we've both had a lot on our plates and there was a lot of pressure (my mom hates him, my friends weren't fans of him because of the added stress he was in my life making sure that I found time to talk with him) so last week I told him that we needed to take a break. Which was a mistake because I love him a lot. But I totally meant it when I said that, and he wants to get back together with me too, but he wants to see me in person before we get back together, which is understandable. But until then (1 week left to wait!), we're not together, and he doesn't want to talk as much, so it's like losing my best friend. Because that's what he is. My best friend. Which might sound crazy, but we've talked every day except for like 10 days in the past year when he was on a cruise and there wasn't cell phone reception. And although it wasn't always intense conversation everyday, the days that we couldn't talk much, we always got a little bit of talking in. And now that our talking is so limited, it's killing me. A lot. Whenever something happens, I always think of what he'd think about it. And it's weird not being able to tell him everything.

Sorry for this long post, but I needed to vent. By the way, does anyone know what I should do about my Tyler situation? He's my ex boyfriend that I really want to get back together with...
Posted on 11/06/09, 06:11 pm