Heroin Addiction & Recovery Support Group

hey. I personally have done all the same shit as you. I have been worse doing 15 ballones a day and just saving one for morning. I would have to take my kit everywhere with me cus thats what I do. To work, college, church, my pops place, I mean everywhere. A month ago I got on my dads couch and just kicked. It was the easier part because it was pure want that got me out again. I since used for 2 days again, then stopped. Its such a nightmare to love this drug. I would throw a band aid on and wear short sheeves like no one know? I beleive you are hurt over what your doing but need to come clean and get some help if you wanna get the fuck out of what your doing. Do you have some faith in the people who can help you like your girl or parents to NA??

Does not really sound like you want to get clean, if you did, the only answer is rehab. No one can do it by themselves, no matter what they say, if you do not get help & serioulsy work the programs you will not succeed. If you cannot get into a rehab, NA meetings are a must and not just once a week. Maybe you should wonder what would happen to your son, should you not be there, Maybe that is an incentive.

Baker hit the nail on the head. I'm sorry but I have to say that you can't be a good mom when you are high, and your child is not being properly taken care of. What happens when you nod out and your child gets into your needles, or your dope. You're too busy thinking about what is going to happen to him if you die, how about thinking what is going to happen to him if he gets into your dope. I know how hard it is to get clean from heroin, I watched my son for 6 years, as he was destroying his life with drugs, which he then progressed to heroin. I could say and do nothing, and I did everything in and beyond my powers to fix him. I thought I could get through to him as I am a recovering alcoholic and drug addict, but I couldn't. I also watched him get clean and sober, continuing to stay clean for the past 2 years. If you are truly sick and tired of being sick and tired, you will reach out and get that help, nothing will stand in your way. I seriously don't feel from what you have written that you have truly hit your bottom yet. You are sick of lying to everyone, when in fact everyone knows that you are lying. One way to quit your lying would be to get help for your addiction. But until you are truly ready to surrender and get help for you addiction, yes other addicts can relate to your issues, but relating isn't what you need, getting help is what you need.

I do know 4 people who have been able to kick heroin after a few years in jail. (1 of them quit cold turkey after finding Jesus)
It can be done and there is hope.
Hang in there for your kids sake.