Heroin Addiction & Recovery Support Group

Hi guys, I'm new here and wanted to ask a question. I am on methadone and doing real well on it. Iv gotten my life back in order, am going to college and healing from all the pain I caused myself in the past. I don't use at all anymore. I also used other drugs when and after I lost everything in my life, not just pills or heroin. I used meth too. Anthing to help with chronic pain that I have and to numb emotional pain for a bit. Anyway, I am living with my brother now and am clean like I said. The problem is, is that he is doing crack with a friend of his and is an alcoholic. He was pretty much doing the crack behind my back and I could barley tolerate that because I still knew what he was doing basically in front of my face. Well, more and more he is coming out with it and now is doing it at the table around the corner from me or out in the truck after telling me he is. Although I was never addicted to crack it is hard for me because it is a drug, to get high with and he has it in my face. What do I do? It is becoming a problem more and more. The thing is, is that I don't want to say anything becauase this is his house and he would probably deny the use most of the time anyway. He thinks he is actually being sneaky and I don't know when he does it most of the time. Can you imagine? Something that we our selves lived or died for. We know that life style very well and know what's going on. It's almost laughable if it wasn't so damn sad. I also have a problem with him talking shit to me about me being on metadone. Hey, that is better than the other and who is he to talk considering. I am really trying. I'm getting my shit together. While he sits there high on crack and drunk telling ME I need to stop. It says shit like "I rather you be an alcoholic like me". Can you believe that!? He even tells me to get off my heart meds that I would literally die if I didn't take them. I can't believe I put up with this shit but I feel I have to because hes doing me a favor and letting me live with him and it's not my personality to argue back and tell him what I really think. As I sit here and write this his friend is back and their smoking shit in the living room and I want to scream! Man, they don't even offer. I know that sounds bad but not only are they doing it in my face and they know I am an x-addict but they don't even offer! I'm glad they don't in the long run because I am trying to recover but it's the point I guess. I don't know. What do I do?? Any advise??
Posted on 10/14/09, 12:10 am