Heroin Addiction & Recovery Support Group

My husband has been a any drug addict for almost 18 years, he's gone off, gone back on, and that is how it's been. I've been married to him for 9 years, and we have 2 children. I have left him before, I've purposely put him in jail, just so that he wasn't on the street corner. While I was separated from him, he cleaned up his act, moved to Boston, and after a 4 year separation, we decided to get back together, He promised change and I saw it. While he was gone, my son and I made due. I have a great job, my son was doing good in school, and I was financially ok!. Once he came back, everything started ok, then he began to hang around the wrong crowd and started abusing pills. I was furious, and he said that it wasn't a big deal, it wasn't addictive. Well the ROXY's are and he admitted it. I don't know what to do, in that time we had a daughter, I told all of my family that he was changed man, how am I suppose to tell my mother that I screwed up again, and need her help, after she warned me. My son spends more time with the neighbors family and I don't blame him. All we do is fight. He blames me for a lot. He doesn't want me to fight him, but how can I NOT. I am depressed all the time. I have even considered suicide, just so that my kids can go and live with my mother, and I wont have to raise them alone. I told him to leave the house but he takes the car. or he stays even when I want him to leave. Claiming that this is his house and he helps with the bills. I can't spend time in court, the job situation isn't that good so that I can miss work, I can be replaced. No one knows what I am going through..Help!
Posted on 08/11/09, 07:08 pm