What is Heroin Addiction
Heroin or diacetylmorphine (INN) is a semi-synthetic opioid. It is the 3,6-diacetyl derivative of morphine (hence diacetylmorphine) and is synthesised from it by acetylation. The w...
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I have been with my boyfriend for a few months now. Before we started dating he told me about his past heroin addiction. Last year he went through detox is October but was sent home with no medication or help. He ended up relapsing and went to detox again in December. When he go out, he went to a two week long inpatient rehab program. By the time we started talking, he had been clean for 6 months and things were going well for him.
We started dating and were together for a couple of months before he confessed that he had been using again and had started right after we started hanging out. He told me this after picking me up from work one day. Him and his parents had arranged for him to go to detox again that day but he didn't want to go before having the chance to tell me what was happening. He knows I'm totally drug free and against drugs so he arranged another way home from me, sure that I was going to leave him. I wanted to, but I couldn't. I went with him to detox and visited him every day. He cried most of the time I was with him and apologized so much for hurting me. He confessed that he had already wanted to quit. That he told his dealer the day before that he didn't want to do it anymore. He ended up waking up the day after telling his dealer that and he was deathly ill from withdraw. So I know he chose to go to detox on his own. Since then, he's been taking suboxon in front of me every day so I know he's taking it; he spends all his free time with me so he hardly has time to go get drugs if he wanted to; and he can usually account for where he spent his entire paycheck. Everything seems to be going well, and he tells me all the time that I'm the purpose for him being clean. That he wants to do anything to make me happy so I'll stay with him. It's often hard to believe him though after he lied to me so much. Now, I watch his eyes to make sure they're dilating, I watch his arms to make sure there are no new punctures (he has scars from where he used to use), I keep track of where he's spending his money, and I keep track of him suboxon to see that he's not selling any and that he is taking them (he takes it in front of me every morning so I see that he really DOES take it). I'm still so worried and was hoping to hear some success stories from others. Something to give me some hope that this good streak of his will last. Posted on 10/22/09, 01:10 pm |
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Hi, that sounds exhausting. It sounds like he is doing O.K. right now but the thing is the chances of him staying clean are slim in less he has a network of people helping him. You can't be the only one doing this. You can give him your support but he needs others and other things to help him. And being in the same environment with the surrounding area being the same as when he used can be extremly difficult. I think too that every situation of course and every relationship is different. Its hard though when they have lied so much in the past. That means they are capable of lying to you again and will go to great measures to make sure you don't find out. I hope every thing goes well for you and him. I wish you luck. I was engaged to a man years back who was an addict. When we got together the first time he was going to college and doing real well, completley clean. Of course in the beginning I didn't even know he was an addict. It didn't last long and he ended up going to jail for 9 months. I waited for him. When he got out it didn't take long before he did it again after all the promises and love letters. He starts out so strong and was realy trying hard to get his life together and I believe 100% they are truthful about this. Its just addiction is so hard. This time he hid it from me in great extremeds when he was doing more than I ever imagined him doing. He asked me to marry him and I said yes. I thought he was clean after all but he was acting different. He was a lot more aggressive and had a "If you don't like it, kick rocks" attitude. I should have known because it was not his personality when he was clean. The very weekend we were to be married he was arrested and went back to jail. I finally decided to,leave him for good although it broke my heart. I realy did love him. That was 10 years ago or more and last I heard he has been out of jail for a while now, is married and has two kids and is clean. Iam so happy for him. It is possible but its not going to happen til it happens. Til he is ready. Its just one of those things. No matter how much he loved me he couldnt get things straight and I know he loved me. Not until years later when he finally had enough and got the help he needed. Only they can decide on this. You cant watch his every move. That is not good for you, for him or your relationship. You can only support or leave him. He has to be willing to show you without being asked proof that he is not lying about things and showing you through his actions that he is doing the work that it takes to stay clean. I do hope your relationship goes well and he stays clean and if not you have the courage to leave him and leave him for good. You cant save him. Alot of us girls think that if we stay with him he will make it and are often told that by him. Don't belive that. Thats not true. There is nothing special about us that is going to make him stay clean. That sounds bad but its true. I did the same thing and I wasted many precious years I cant get back and was a made a fool of and had a broken heart that I still feel from time to time. Don't be that person. Oh, and pray. Its amazing what a prayer can do. 
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