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Reply #1 -
06/19/09
7:47am
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welcome hang in there! anger is part of the process. i believe we are realy angy at ourselves.enjoy your second life. at least you still have a lifestyle to change
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Reply #2 -
06/20/09
9:02am
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Welcome
You come to the right place as the people here have been through what you have. I had my first heart attack in 2003 at the age of 48. Anger and depression is a common side effect. I also have sever diabetes and have been through a lot in the last year. I have had 2 heart attacks in he same week, had numerous stents put in, and have had bypass surgery twice since last July. The most important thing to do is listen to your doctors and work with them. You can overcome this and still lead a productive life. you can always come here to get the support you need and I'm sure you will make many new friends that have been there.
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Reply #3 -
06/22/09
7:47pm
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I am new to this site also. I can't imagine what a person who's had a heart attack goes through, but I only know what my 62 yr. old husband is going through since Jan. when he had a triple bypass and valve replacement. Ever since he had his operation he has been having complications. He had septic shock and pneumonia and nearly died when his heart stopped. Right now he is in the hospital with sepsis infection and the dr. said if his heart stops again we should consider letting him go that maybe if that happens it is his way of saying that he doesn't want to be here anymore. I don't believe that because my daughter asked him if he ever feels like giving up and he shook his head no. He's been on a trach for about 4 mos. and the dr. said he will never get off of it that he will most likely die with it in and that he will never be like he was before this happened. I believe in God and I believe that he has something bigger in store for him. God can raise him up off of that bed and make him new again. Sometime this week he is going back to the nursing home where he was before he went to the hosp.
I miss him so much I even have dreams that he is here with me and that he came through everything ok. I would like it if someone out there would write to me about a similar experience, or just to encourage me because I feel so all alone like no one else is going through what I am. Because of the trach he can't talk to me all he can do is nod or shack his head no or shrug his shoulders. I miss his voice most of all. All I can do is keep praying for him.
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Reply #4 -
06/22/09
9:32pm
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gbell, so sorry for what ur going through, i hpe ur husband can recover, there is goodsupport here
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Reply #5 -
06/23/09
10:21pm
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GBell, I'm so sorry to hear about your husband! First and foremost, you're not alone! I cannot tell you a similar experience, as I only had my first heart attack. I can, however, tell you that your husband is with you and still thinks about you every chance he gets. When I was taken to the hospital that night, I was scared that those were going to be my last moments on earth. All I could think about was my wife and family. My wife came in to talk to me right before they life flighted me to the next hospital to have my cathiterization, and I told her goodbye. We both cried like crazy and I came to peace with the fact that that might be the last time I said "I love you" to her. The next few days in recovery, she stayed by my bed pretty much the whole time. When she wasn't there, she's all I thought of, as she's one of the few people on this planet I have loved unconditionally in this life. The point I'm making is that your husband feels the same, even if he can't express it. As a husband who was also facing death, I can tell you that your smile and voice are enough to put him at ease and that just knowing that you care enough to be there with him means the world. And you're right, God does have a plan for him. That dr. has no right assuming what God wants from him. Since my heart attack, I can tell you that I have felt every emotion possible towards God. I've been angry, curious, frustrated, but the feeling that was the most powerful was love. God showed me that I have more to do on this planet and that I needed a wake up call. I needed to start appreciating every moment and taking nothing for granted. I'm SURE you're husband feels the same. I'm sure every time he sees you, he grabs that moment and clings to it. It's funny how situations like that make you realize just what life is all about. If you're husband has hung on this long, God has given him the strength to fight and from the sounds of it, he has a wonderful woman to fight for. You will be in my prayers, as are all of you who have conditions or are reaching out to help another. This site is amazing! It is the way the Lord would want it, humans just being compassionate to one another and taking the time to care for those who are in need. GBell, as long as you stay here and seek the support, I'm sure you'll find it. And keep praying! Pray not for what you want, though. Pray for God's will. God is with you always, whether it feels like it or not, and knows what you need. He knows what's best for you husband and will never forsake either of you. Please take care and let your husband know that I will be praying for the both of you!
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Reply #6 -
06/25/09
9:52pm
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Dear GBell,
GIrl, you are in my prayers! I have a little book I keep by my bedside that I write my requests in and you and your husband will be in there before I go to bed tonight.
Guitarhead, I cannot imagine having a heart attack at your age, since I am almost twice as old as you and think I am WAY too young for this to happen to me; however it has. I have gone through the anxiety, depression, anger, and then some. My son is grown, but I think he still needs me, so I can relate to your feelings of loss. Facing mortality is a very scary thing, and I wish I had a wonderful answer for you, but I don't . BUT, you will find some of the best people here who will post info that will help you, and I hope that I can be one of them. For me personally as a Christian I have found great comfort in the Psalms, especially Psalm 103 and 116. I read them every night.
I'm sending out good thoughts and prayers to everyone who reads this. May God richly bless us all and give us a peaceful, restful night.
Pam
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Reply #7 -
06/26/09
9:18pm
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I am so sorry for everyone. My mother had triple bi pass when I was 17 and she died when I was 45. I had my heart attack when I was 39. My family has a blood disorder. We have early age heart attacks. I am so glad I found this group. I have been trying to deal with alot of this on my own. wow its amazing to read everyones posts. I thought I had alot of these feeling all by myself. I am so glad I found a group I can relate with. It is up to God
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Reply #8 -
11/16/09
6:06pm
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im new just having mine 11-06-09 since i found this site i feel good you ever need an ear just let me know i check the site a lot throught the day it really helps and the people are the greatest
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Reply #9 -
11/16/09
7:15pm
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OMG! you are so very young. But here I am 52 and feeling pretty much the same things as you. I am not ready to die, I am very angry and don't even know why, but watch out cause I am always ready to fight.:D jk. Hang in there, Things will get better trust me. this is my 3'd time, and I reckon I should be a pro by now, but I am more scared than ever! I will keep you in my prayers. I can only imagine how hard it must be for you, because you are so very young.
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Reply #10 -
11/17/09
5:34pm
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Thanks to all of you, Pason and Johnny F, as well, for your outpour of support! I'm in a better place now, but I don't think I'll ever shake the fear of death at such a young age. I'm dealing better with the anger, though. I've come to conclude that if God says it's my time, there's not too much I can do. I do ask Him everyday that He at least let me see my children grow up and start their lives. Really, that's all I want. My kids were so scared when I had my heart attack and I had no idea what to tell them, since I can't explain it myself. They're all very supportive, but at the end of the day, they're still kids and are probably just as scared as I am. I thank all of you for your support though, and please keep me posted on how you are all doing as well! I try to stop by as often as I can, but it's not as often as I'd like. I want all to know that I'm here for you as you're here for me! This was the single most scary event of my adult life and I wouldn't wish it on anyone, so if you're feeling alone and need someone, please don't hesitate to talk to me! In times like these, we all need someone and I hope that I can offer the same support that you all have offered me! Take care and God Bless!
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