Healthy Eating Support Group

I put this on the other weight loss groups and eating healthy is part of that so here is what I wrote:
I have struggled with my weight all my life. I've had to deal with some nasty things In my life. I was abused by my father and neglected by my mother most of the time. I ate whatever was in the house because that's all I could eat. I had to make my own food and that usually consisted of mac and cheese or mini pizzas you heat up in the microwave. I had to teach myself how to do everything at a young age because no one else would take the time to teach me. Do to this It created bad eating habits for me and I always hid in my room away from my dad ( Lack of exersize) by the time 8th grade rolled around I was 175 the biggest I had been in my entire life. My dad started coming into my room when he was drunk yada yada abuse. So My room was no longer safe. During this time I was also extremely depressed. So guess what I did? I walked and walked and walked and kept on walking. I would walk when it was -10 degrees in just a sweatshirt and in 100 degrees. I would walk untill I got blisters and the inside of my legs became raw. I'd wake at 6 in the morning or 10 at night I didn't care I loved it and didnt want to stop it got me away from the bad life I had. Well I lost weight and alot of it. I got down to 135 by the time I was 15 and I loved it. I was happy with how I looked for once in my life. I still ate the things I usually do I just walked it off so It didn't matter and do to the walking I ate less. I met my boyfriend in 10th grade and My life was still as miserable as ever untill I met him. he made me happy. I moved in with him to excape. What I didn't realize is they lived near a highway with no where to walk. I hated it there I couldn't walk I couldn't do anything we didn't eat untill 10 at night at most times but I was happy to be away from my house so I didn't care. that was untill I looked at the scale. 6 months in to living there 150 pounds, Okay whatever my weight fluctuates. 1 year into living there 180 Maybe this is going to far 1 and a half years living there 200 I can't do this anymore. 2 years living there and being at 220 pounds Id had enough and moved back home now 1 into living back at my house my father passed away christmas day and I am moving to an apartment with the boyfriend and a married couple who are our close friends. I'm 18 now and weight 245 pounds. I am so ashamed I let myself get this way and am so hurt whenever I look at that scale. I want to be back to my 135 pound self when I was 16 but I don't know where to start. My whole life is changing drastically and I want my weight problems to change with it. But I am not motvated to do anything I just sit here. I created bad habits and I want to go back to the way I was before so I'm asking for help and I despreately need someone to coach me along with this I need to lose the 110 pounds I gained in the past 2 and a half years. I need to start off slow I can't just drop everything eat healthy and walk 3 hours a day. Being 5'3" and 245. The extra baggage is starting to hurt me. I was in a car accident and my knees have been messed up since. the weight is causeing them to be extremely painful at times. I have asthma already and walking upstairs or anything makes it very difficult to breath. I want to go back to my healthy active self. So my first question is where do I start?
Posted on 07/06/12, 04:58 pm