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Papillomaviruses [ Human papillomavirus ] are a diverse group of DNA-based viruses that infect the skin and mucous membranes of humans. More than 100 different human papillomavirus...
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When I was in highschool, I was sexually assaulted. I developed GW at 16 and endured the acid treatment to remove warts internally. As painful as it was, I just wanted to take better care of myself and keep this from happening again. I was not given much information on HPV, nor could I find much online. I felt very, very alone and disconnected from the goings-on in my body.
Though the acid treatments worked (so my Doc said, I have no idea what it looks like in there!) I also had some in the rectal area that I was very embarrassed about. Six years later, they are still there. I asked a doctor to look a couple of years ago, but she simply stuck her finger inside and out, said the surface was smooth, and that was that. She did NOT encourage me to start getting rectal exams. I t was not until this year that I was finally encouraged to see a colorectal specialist for a routine rectal exam. Had a biopsy on the polyps, all is fine. Whew. Still more polyps to remove though. Baby steps. Another development this summer: I had my first abnormal pap. LGSIL. I felt disgusted with myself, and betrayed as well. But I sucked it up and had a colposcopy done. One of the most uncomfortable experiences of my life. The biopsy results came back negative, but I still felt dirty and helpless. I have since changed my diet, I'm active, getting full nights of sleep, and trying to balance all the work with play. But I have yet again developed some warts, internally and small ones on the surface. I feel like I let myself down. At my breaking point. I am high risk AND I have another strain that causes GW? Oy vey. My eyes well up just thinking about it. I don't know who to talk to, it seems the doc's don't seem to care. I realize that HPV is an "epidemic" and most people will have it at some points in their lives but that DOES NOT mean the Doc's can disregard each individual patient's emotional vulnerability during treatment! I am frustrated, with myself, with the process. I want this all to go away. I hate to think that I may have passed this on to someone else. I hate to think that I may never look or feel the same, or be totally confident in my sexuality when it comes to being with a partner again (a LONG time from now). I just need a friend. My mom is here for me but I think I have let her down so much, I hate to ask her to comfort me. This has ROCKED me emotionally, I wish more people could understand what it's like to go through this. Someone reach out to me, please. God bless. Posted on 11/05/09, 08:11 pm |
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Hey - I'm really sorry that you've been through so much. Being assaulted is one thing - but then living with this as a result of that puts this into a whole other ball game.
I would really encourage you to find a doc who can treat you with the respect that you deserve. I'm lucky because my practice has ob/gyn's and nurse-midwives. I thought the nurse mid-wives were only there to help the preggies. But a long time ago the wait to get in to see a doc was longer than I wanted so I had an appt. with the n.midwife. To this day I swear by them. At least in my experience they want to treat it all - how is your stress level, are you satisfied with your sex life, etc....Obviously you need to have someone who can do the proper treatment/course of action. But ask around and find someone who can treat you and your medical condition. I give you a lot of credit because you are taking the initiative to care for yourself better - more sleep, changes in your diet. Someone on this sight reached out to me and told me about Lysine - it's a supplement that can help with viral infections. I'm not in the medical field - but it wouldn't hurt to check into it and see if it makes a difference. I shouldn't assume this - but since your mom is in on the loop - you must have a really great relationship. I can't speak for your mom - but if she's like most moms out there - she'd go to hell and back for you. (She'd go with you if you let her). It might help to talk to someone - like a counselor. I think you have a lot of stuff going on that isn't easy to process. Prayer can be a powerful thing. Don't be afraid to use it. (I don't want to out of line - but I read at the end of your message, God Bless. Sunshinemg, put it in his hands and see what happens. Know that there is someone else to lean on and someone else is sending positive thoughts your way. Take care, PammV88 
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sunshine, I feel really bad for you. What terrible experiences!
I'm just learning that I have HPV this past week, and it's the most awful feeling. I feel so small, so diminished. Is there a place for answers. There's no GWs that I have ever had, but they say that males can go symptomless and STILL BE A CARRIER. I'm divorced! I want to move on, and I feel that I can't now. All the women that I wanted to be with... I ruled them out. I don't want to spread this awful mess. I wish there were more answers. I have frantically looked for other support groups and there are none!
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hi i just wanted to let u know that your story really touched me. i found out that i had hpv about two and half to three months ago. My boyfriend didnt know he had it and gave it to me. His doctor two years ago told him his what then appeared to be little bumps were moles and now two years later they are genital warts which i have contracted as well...its been hard to say the least. my boyfriend went to the doctor gotten them frozen off with liquid nitrogen and his havent been back since. i was initially given aldara which didnt work and ive had three tca treatments buts she always seems to miss some. i battle with this everyday and my mom knows that i have it but i havent told her completely whats gong on meaning she doesnt know im still struggling with trying to get rid of them. i think uless you have it u reall dont know how to understand it and being a female makes it all the more difficult to get rid of. I too believe that i have developed one in my recgtal area although all my doc did was take a quick look and say no, but i am positive there is one there. some days i just want to cry because i feel so lonely in dealing with this situation ...i have so many questions that go unanswered. i wonder if they will ever go away? i wonder if my boyfriend will be here longer then they will? im only 20 and i feel like this has changed a great deal of my life. i just want them to go away!!! i look on the internet trying to find ways of getting rid of them but i cant tell which are scams and which are legit. i got my hopes up so high when i came across dermisil and wartrol only to find out they are scams and now im going to get my boyfriend to ask his doctor about this medicine called valacore...i didnt mean to ramble on but i guess just like u i wanted to get my story out....god bless
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