HPV Support Group

Hello. I'm new to this site. I'm 30 years old and have been very healthy up until recently. I've had regular annual pap smears since I was 17 and they always came back normal until 6 months ago. Well, 6 months ago it came back normal/high risk hpv positive. So my doctor just told me to come back 6 months later to retest as it could go dormant. Well, when I went in for my 6 month follow up it came back abnormal ASCUS HPV...so she said again, to come back in 6 months. This didn't seem right to me as it changed in just 6 months...what would happen in another 6? And being that I'm a giant hypochondriac, I couldn't wait 6 months so I set up my own appointment for colposcopy with an OBGYN (my family doc isn't even an MD...she's a FNP).

My appointment was this past Thursday (it's Saturday now). The doctor reviewed my medical records and decided she'd do a colposcopy and cervical biopsy to be safe. She gave me Demerol and Valium before the procedure to ease my nerves and to help with pain....and let me tell you - it did NOTHING. Not to scare anyone out there who hasn't had this done yet (most say it's easy as pie) but this was hands down the most painful, traumatic experience of my life to date. And I usually can handle pain. The colposcopy was no biggie...just uncomfy and the vinegar burned a bit, but the biopsy was excruciating...she took 4 biopsies total and by the second one I was crying and pleading with her to stop but she wouldn't. My legs were shaking and I threw up afterwards. The nurse told me that happens often...?!?!?!? Is this just a bad doc or is that normal? I mean after what I experienced I think I should've been put under GA. I had to get help walking to the car (my mom drove me) and I cried all the way home...even on strong pain meds. Ugh. I will NEVER do that again...I simply won't.

And now the aftermath....The bleeding stopped by day 2 but I still have to wear pads to collect this yucky clumpy discharge with huge brown pieces of what looks like flesh coming out of me. I'm using vandazole gel suppositories twice a day too to prevent infection after the biopsy, but it's clear so I am really put off by what these huge chunks are..anyone else experience this?? On top of that, I'm still so traumatized from that experience I can't even get up from the couch 3 days later. I shudder when I remember. And I still have getting the results to look forward to...I go back in 2 weeks for that. I just joined this site to see if there are any other experiences like mine because I thought maybe talking about it with people who understand would pull me out of this depression and funk I'm in.
Posted on 02/12/11, 01:41 pm