Gay & Lesbian Teens Support Group

So I decided I was bisexual like a year and a half ago. I've always noticed the same sex, but I tried to pass it off as an aesthetic type thing til I met a girl who I was unbelievably interested in. After that I came to terms with it, and since then I've sorta felt myself become more and more attracted to women.

Anyway, I had a boyfriend about a year ago. Just one. We had sex a few times. And I never once enjoyed it. Like, I really tried to, and I tried to get into it, but it was always just awkward and I remember thinking every time, "THIS is what all the fuss is about?" I haven't done it since I left him. I don't really want to.

I thought that was fairly normal though until one of my friends pointed it out to me the other day (I'm pretty open with them about my sex life and sexuality and all). She said, "Look, you're probably just completely les and you don't realize it. Every other girl I know, even the bi girls, are way more into c*ck than you. Besides, you seem like one." Apparently I set off people's gaydars, because she is not the only other person to have told me I seem particularly lesbian. This includes my mother. She insists I'm gay and has been trying to get me to come out since before I even acknowledged my attraction to girls.

So is it normal to not enjoy sex? Or is that a tell-tale sign that I have not realized who I am yet or what? I really (thought I?) loved my ex. But who knows. My friend had a point. The thought of dating a guy right now kind of turns me off, but I'd be so up for dating a girl. I'm way confused.
Posted on 10/28/09, 08:10 pm