Compulsive gambling is an urge or addiction to gamble despite harmful negative consequences or a desire to stop. A preferred term among many professionals is problem gambling, as f...
If you don't what to hear any whining PLEASE DON"T READ!!!!! The only positive that I have is that I remain gamble free at this time!! My depression is kicking my butt!!! I try not to ruminate but sometimes...... Maybe this is why Gambling became such a high in my life!!! I don't remember what fun is!!! I try to figure out why I was pla...
I have a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach today. I haven't felt it for a while. It comes from worry. I am worrying - it's something I used to do a great deal and lately have tried not to. I have tried to deal with situations as I can - this one I am worried about. It comes from a Mother's heart. My children are my absolute joy - but also my worry. I have a 2 so...
Hey All, Been missing you all terribly but have been to ashamed as usueal to show my face!!! Enjoyed the time with my family immensly and came home and fell apart!!!! Can't ajust to raising to grandchildren!!!! Can't adjust to normal everyday life!!!! I went an a gambling binge like no other!!! Had a win and started the same ol hideous cycle. I so apprec...
ONE OF MY VERY CLOSE FRIENDS SUFFERS FROM BIPOLAR.SHE IS ALSO A ALCHOLIC.SHE HAS A WONDER MAN WHICH SHE LIVES WITH.HE WENT AWAY ON HOLIDAYS 2 WEEKS AGO WHICH GAVE HER THE OPURTUNITY TO GIVE UP TAKING HER MEDICATION AND START DRINKING.NOW TWO DAYS BEFORE HE LEFT MY HUSBAND WENT DOWN TO BRISBANE TO SEE HIS FAMILY.THIS IS MY FIRST MARRAIGE. WE GOT MARRIED WHEN I WAS 45 YEARS OLD.WE HAVE BEEN TO GATH...
This has taken me a couple days to write as I just cannot believe I am back to this place. I cannot believe I have to start over again. Friday was payday and I got called into the payroll office where the payroll lady proceded to tell me that my paycheck was levyed by the IRS. My ex husband had defaulted on our payment to the IRS and they came after me.. I was devastated. ...
I guess I would call it sad and frustrating instead of venting, now that I think about it - no, change that to just plain frustrating... It has only been a week and I relented yet again today. The positive is that I now have figured out why I do it, and I guess that can help me. Again, for the 100+ time, I acknowledge that I don't have control, which of course I already know....
16 days!! Waa Hoooo!!! I really want to make it!!! Yesterday was REALLY tough!! Had major issues with my daughter. So much on my plate and I'm wondering if I need to take custody of the Grandkids and put Halye out to sink or swim because we just can't live like this any longer!!!! Something terrible is going to happen and I would rather have my daughter hate me then have my gr...
Ugh, I don’t really have an excuse for being away so long I just kind of got overwhelmed with life, drifted away and then felt awkward about coming back. Dumb excuse I know, thank you to all my friends that have been checking on me regardless of my absents. I sign in today and it really made it impossible to sign back out without posting something. I am doing ok still GF t...
I have dug myself into an all time low in my life. Will this be my last bottom? Have I finally reached my limit? These are the questions I am asking myself. I have thought that I have hit bottom so many times in the last nine years. I have suffered, agonized, cried and wished to die so many times I couldn't count them all if I wanted to. Yet I have somehow h...