What is Gambling-Addiction
Compulsive gambling is an urge or addiction to gamble despite harmful negative consequences or a desire to stop. A preferred term among many professionals is problem gambling, as f...
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Thursday November 26, 2009
Painful Stories
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I began gambling about a year ago. I won $500 in a keno game in a bar. I haven't quit since and I sure haven't won that much again. I frequent the bar and put money in the slot machines they have available and also continue to play keno. I stay too late and my husband is fed up with me. I have and 8 year old and an 11 year old daughter and they mean the world...
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I know that the road to success has its deviations... success is not a straight line. I am telling myself all of these things because once again, though I have all of the right answers and thoughts about what I want to accomplish here re: my gambling, I deviated from the path of success today. I have a friend who is leaving for Israel to be with her husband; I am going to miss her a great d...1 Recommendation9 Comments
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This is what my youngest daughter told me tonight when she called me. She was delivering a message from the denist she said. Not the first time in the last year since she moved in with her father that she has delivered this message to me. I am sitting here feeling punched in the gut and slapped across the face once again..........
I feel like such a piece of sh*t. My overwh...1 Recommendation10 Comments -
I have dug myself into an all time low in my life. Will this be my last bottom? Have I finally reached my limit? These are the questions I am asking myself. I have thought that I have hit bottom so many times in the last nine years. I have suffered, agonized, cried and wished to die so many times I couldn't count them all if I wanted to. Yet I have somehow h...1 Recommendation10 Comments
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Today I am home, I am off tonight and tomorrow. So, I am here alone while my husband is at work. I've been reading journal entries, discussion posts, and reading over my own journal entries......
I believe after reading my entry from yesterday and the comments left for me, I've discovered that it isn't the fear of selfishness I am feeling, but rather the feeling of not dese...1 Recommendation7 Comments -
I am feeling so distraught today. It seems as though I can only talk the talk and not walk the walk. That is not my intent though. At the times I am saying what I am saying I am sincere and yet it takes so little to get me off track again.
Am I fooling myself? Do I really want recovery? I know I want serentity? I am so tired of chaos and drama and feeling like a...2 Recommendations6 Comments -
Here I am and it's 1:00 in the morning. I took up a waitressing job at a place I use to work for years ago. When I got home, my daughter went out and son was in bed. I was feeling really depressed and hurt all day by my husband leaving us. There are just so much emotion going on in my soul each day, hurt, anger, guilt, frustration, sadness, loneliness, fear, self-doubt, anything negative, you...1 Recommendation6 Comments
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JUST LATELY EVERY THING HAS BEEN GOING GREAT TILL THIS MORNING.MY DAUGHTER RANG SHE'D BEEN LOCKED UP FOR THE NIGHT OVER AN OLD WARRANT.SHE SAID SHE ASKED THE POLICE TO RING ME.THEY SAID THEY DID.I NEVER GOT ANY PHONE CALL.SHE RANG OUR BARRISTOR WHO CAME STRAIGHT AWAY AS HE DOES. SHE WENT TO COURT THIS MORNING AND GOT A 375 DOLLAR FINE.NOW SHE IS A DENTAL NURSE AND LIVES ACROSS FROM WHERE SHE ...1 Recommendation7 Comments
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Rereading my je seems like I was really on the pity pot. I guess remorse, shame and self-disgust play a part and oh my...don't I hate to have to say it was all my fault...no excuses. I do hate to say it. I don't even know if I really believe it...but from every
thing I know it seems like I should have been able to stay gf.
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Oh my dearest,dearest friends, My heart is broken!! I knew in my heart, even before the trip was planned, that my mother was going to do this to me. That's why I wanted to be GF and emotionally stronger!!!!!! My mother came in half delerious this morning about 7am asking me to help her commit suicide and not tell!! Oh my God!!!! She was killing me!!! Saying she doesn&#...1 Recommendation6 Comments
