Well things havent improved since I last updated u all on my situation. On Wednesday my mom was admitted to the psych ward at the local hospital. Apparently her schizophrenia which I just recently learned of, is out of control and she has had a nervous meltdown of some sort. I was told that they were only going to be able to keep her for 3 days since she signed herself in at the advice of her psy...
today was a bad day.i am not quiet myself. my girls and grandkids came over and i didn,t want them there.i just wanted to be alone, the bipolar is back in full swing. sometimes i wish they would ask me how i am . or ask whats bothering me . i know they love me , but a hug wouldn,t be so bad once in awhile. am i asking to much of them. i just want to cry and when i do get held to sometimes
I wanted to share this message from my nephew with you.(Regular crazy messages continue tomorrow) Hello, this is Jared Allwes. As you may know I had heart surgeries as a baby. I was born with a few congenital heart defects and nearly died within my first week of life. It was research funded by the American Heart Association just a few years before I was born that...
The tears flow like a river with no dam to stop them. Why is it that we spend trillions of dollars to fight a senseless war and we have to pull teeth to get our government to fund money for rehabs and outpatient clients. There is a billion people addicted to some form of narcotics, whether it be cocaine, heroin, prescription drugs, and we can't get help for them. I am so sad and angry that in...
Just a little while ago, I found out that a really close friend of mine died in her sleep from an overdosed of pills!!! Her name is Tara and she was 39!! Such a tragic and senseless loss. Her and I had alot of great times, great laughs together. We fought over men and then laughed about it afterwards. She was a bright star that has been extinguished too soon. Rest in peace my dearest friend. I ho...
TODAY I WASN,T MYSELF . I WAS HAVING A DEPRESSING DAYAND I DON,T KNOW WHY. I WAS THINKING ABOUT MY BROTHER ALOT TODAY. I STILL MISS YOU VERY MUCH ITS LIKE APART OF MY LIFE IS MISSING. I JUST KEEP THINKING I SHOULD OF STAYED WITH HIM.MAYBE HE WOULD BE WITH ME . BUT I DON,T KNOW THAT FOR SURE.I KEEP SECOUND GUESSING MYSELF. BUT THAT ISN,T HELPING ME THANKS FOR LETTING ME VENT LOVE YOU ELLEN
Well i learned a very good lesson today never ask DS to delete some of your journals i wanted to delete from jan - the end of march and guess what THEY ARE ALL GONE!!! all of my video journals all the comments you guys left for me all gone so i will NEVER do that again.. anyway we can start moving stuff in tomorrow *thursday* so Nate is going to unload boxes after he gets off of work and when he g...