Monday February 8, 2016
We went to see Elisa's therapist to day. I told him about her moodswings and he agreed that we need to talk to a child psychiatrist. So now i have to wait for them to contact him and then i will hopefully find out when and if we can see him. Anyway my day has been mostly good. Like always i'm not doing much exept comtuter or tv. I hate this, it is so difficult to take care of myself and t...
It is with a broken heart that I share the news that my best half,my soul mate, Gordon, was taken home to be with the Lord on Saturday January 12, 2013. Today 1/14 is our 19th wedding anniversary. Please hold him in your heart & prayers. Jan
How do the dreams and nightmares go away? why is it i dream now of me lying in a coffin and her loverboy and her standing over arm and arm lookin over me ?
If it wasn't something so bad as she claim's or denie's why do i feel like there was ? why can't she see that's how i feel
why can't she turn this event or whatever and focus on us ..why does it have to be like this , i have no one to t...
Still feeling the after math ...of the daughters game using the baby ..However over all i guess we were being used , seem she found someone to watch the baby
but of course the wife is looking to blame someone ..instead of the one that created it all !
and of course i am the one being targeted ... but she has seemed to withdrawn herself from me ...since tuesday night's session .....
Maybe i'll just be like her ...and ignore the relationship ... and not give a care ..perhaps someone someday will come along and give me what i am in need of
funny tho she dont keep herself all dolled up and fresh ..as she didn't threw August and October .. i have noticed that
when i mention US ...nothing gets said ...it just seems like she avoid's the conversation or the conflict of ...
Here I am again reaching out when I'm hurting. Life has just kept going downhill since my husband died almost two years ago. This week was the anniversary of the death of my son. In a couple of weeks it will be the anniversary of my husband's passing. Last week was my birthday (78). And tomorrow is Christmas.
Having lost most of my income, I've had to move. Now...
He endured treatment upon treatment for Lymphoma, rare and advanced they said.
He got standard protocol, lost his hair, took off work, and felt like hell, chemo so dangerous, he was hospitalized.
He completed treatment, was scanned, and pronounced in remission. (There is no cure for this one.)
He had a week of decent health, followed by a slow, gradual decline that to me seemed like falling ...
I will never be okay. I thought that it was my whole state that just didn't follow the sex offender rules. But I guess it was just my area. I guess I am glad that where I live now follows the rules. But I am angry that rapists and pedophiles get to get away with what they do where I used to live, and probably in a lot of other areas too. It just isn't fair. I feel like I cannot be okay.So a few weeks ago, maybe early early September, i somehow told my friend from high school, the one with pancreatic cancer, that it would work out to see him on the Oct. 8 time as my dad was scheduled for the chemo chairs on that same day. This was all just text messages, very occasional, very casual, friends!
in between the time i had texted that day and the appointment time, i sent him a card f...
I feel so sad and depressed right now and so lonely. I don't know what to do with myself. I just got done playing a game of monopoly with my mom, but I still feel that way. Part of the problem is that I haven't had a boyfriend in about 6 years. I just have my parents and 1 friend left and my cat. I feel as if I must be letting my parents down by not having a job. I almost never have any money. I ...