Food Addiction Support Group

When I was in seventh grade I had a health teacher who said, "there are those who live to eat and there are those who eat to live"--I can't believe i remember this after all those years--

maybe part of the reason i remember it--is becuase at the time i didn't understand it--i remember thinking to my self---who lives to eat---i eat to live---ironically a year later is my earliest memory of my binge eating habits and today i am now the one who lives to eat.

i am constantly thinking about my next food craving and when can i eat and what can i eat and how fast can i shovel it in--it rules my life

my binge eating makes me constantly aware of my appearance---i feel like every waking momenet is dedicated to thinking about how fat i am--and my mothers words run through my thoughts like a broken record,
"your to pretty to be fat"

how do i admit i need help---every year---every month i say this time it will be different--by this time next year i will be skinny--i will be healthy--i will be happy

and every year since that one summer i began binging nearly 8 years ago i say i will change and nothing ever happens--attempts happen---but the results never last--i always find myself back at square one

my mother always reiterates the words of my grandmother and says-"life isn't a dress rehearsal...."

so how do I make my life better how to get the help I need to fight this addiction and not make year 8—year 9….?
Posted on 10/27/09, 01:10 am