What is Food Addiction
Compulsive overeating is characterised by an addiction to food. An individual suffering from compulsive overeating disorder engages in frequent episodes of uncontrolled eating, or ...
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about 2 months ago i moved out of my home state for law school--where i had roughly maintained a 10 pound weight loss from my heaviest weight--and when i moved i gained every bit of it back and then some.--the thing is when i was back home it was hard going out with my skinny friends--i always felt like the one who never gets the guy--but i would always still go---sometimes it was okay--but thats when i was 10 pounds skinner.---but now that i am up in my weight again---i want to go out, but i just dread it---i sometimes almost rather stay in and it---i am so ashamed of how i look---and often i do choose to stay in and eat---which isn't helping me get back out there--it is only pushing the social sceen father away--i used to be the girl who was always up for going out, but now i realized i haven't really been out in a long time beyond dinner or watching a football game---i have friends and everything---but i am just so self councious.
i feel like my life is repeating itself over and over and i am traped by my addiction becuase it keeps my weight up--back home i have a best friend and she always gets the guys and it hurts (but yet if a guy showed any remote interest in me--i would freak out---becuase i don't like me--so i find it distrubing that someone elseo would) and now here i am in a new state (it was suppose to be a fresh start)--but i am back to being the girl who never gets the guy--i have a good friend in my new home state--but just like before she is getting all the guys--i guess what i want more than anything is to be comfortable with myself so that when i guy does approach i don't freak out--becuase while i am jealous of my friends getting guys---i couldn't handle it at the moment. i am suppose to go out dancing this weekend for the first time in a long time and i have been trying to figure out what to wear all week and i feel like i just can't come up with a sexy outfit--yet hide my body at the same time---and thinking about it makes me not want to go out at all...yet i am able to keep shoving the food down my throat... sorry to rant just needed to get it out Posted on 10/21/09, 01:10 am |
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I totally know exactly what you're talking about. I always felt like I was the designated ugly fat friend who was loyal to the girl who got all the guys. I'd stand there and wonder why no one seemed to find interest in me, and it would hurt even more when the guys would become all buddy with me, only as a way to get closer with my friend or have me try to faciliate something.
For so many years I made excuses for people in how they treated, or I simply accepted the role and figured I guess this is all I'm good for- to be the supportive friend to the girl who gets everyone. Only when I stopped making excuses for people did I start to see my relationships change and a decrease in drama in my friendships. When you feel uncomfortable in your own skin, you bend over backwards to have people like you- and of course, they're not gonna reciprocate back bc often theyre the self-centered type who don't think that much of others anyway. I know its easier said than done, but start on a journey to feel comfortable in your own skin. This means talking nicer to yourself- dont feel ashasmed to look at yourself in the mirror and compliment things you like- or to make a list in your journal of things that make you special. A guy cant fill the void of unhappiness that we feel about ourself- when we hate ourselves, even if a guy thinks we're pretty, that boost to our self-esteem only goes so long. Start the work within and it will start permeating outwards into different areas of your life. I'm not saying you should stop hanging out wit hthis girl who gets all the guy, but maybe you shouldnt be at her beckon call all the time. much love-- i KNOW your pain and trust me, it will get better 
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It hurts i know....and to be left on the shelf.....
2yrs ago i was massive 130kg 260lbs i had come to a place of accepting myself as being okay. How i got to that is... i listed all the things i knew other people liked about me heck i even came up with somethings myself. I knew i was a food addict i did not want to enlist in a 12 step program because then i would have to face the fact that i am a addict.... Instead i paid $17,500 to have a gastric bypass which as helped me lose 80lbs i still have another 40lbs to go it has not been coming off because i have had to face my addiction which i can say i am now finally doing it .....one day at a time. If i had just committed to doing my 12step i could of done this with my higher power. I don't regret having my surgery it is a tool. All i can say is get the help you need to have the life you want for yourself. There are on line meetings as well go to www.therecoverygroup.org/newcommer... All the best to you Eliza be kind to YOU! Take Care CC
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