Tuesday July 29, 2014
so last night I was feeling pretty sad anyways, things haven't been going too great lately. then out of the blue my ex girlfriend called me up who I haven't spoken to for a good five months now over the phone. we were trying to be friends by texting each other but it's been hard because her new beau (who was her first ex too) doesn't like me very much and won't let her talk to me. I told her it w...
I'm finnaly not sick and I feel great! but I haven't kept up with the house chores and not everything is a mess .. guess i have work todo
Here it goes. After 7 seven year he put his hands on me again. What really sad is that I'm no longer afraid. I have to walk away. But I have to be careful and I thought tbose days were over. There are no longer reasons to stay excuses for him or desire on my part to try anymore. I hope I live through the next 30 days cause thats what I'll need to save money to move. Any ideas?
My husband decided on his own that we were going to go and bbq at a friend's house for July 4th tomorrow. In attendance will be a couple we just had a rough time with that he has expressed frustration with, as well as I have to him, who have really made things difficult for us. He didn't talk to me before he made these plans because "he figured that if I wanted to do something specific I would ha...
I try to explain to her i am trying to believe in her, but her words and sentence's just make it harder seems nothing add's up , why would a married woman sit in a parking lot surrounded by co-workers talking to a estranged man she only works with,about her home life?
i am really having a hard time grasping at this, she fails to give me insight , for petes sake he calls her cutie WTF? whats he ca...
1 word for today N U M B !When does she see this? humiliated and betrayed ...when does it sink in and she gets it ?
when the guilt pass's over for what 1 had done words she had said to him? why sit and talk with someone and tell 1 story? my distence from her was because of her not i ,
she made OUR marriage the way it was i didn't i went for the ride she don't get she pushed me away at all over the years ...
It hurts knowing that the asshole she was having an affair with is at work right now at this moment as i am typing she called to see what i was doing but failed to say who all showed up for volunteer work until i asked !! i am so livit and my mind is racing
when i spoke with her she gave me nothing positive to hold on to , un fucking real my mind just wont stop
she creates this shit i'm tir...
I would like to start with a link to a song about how I have been feeling the last couple of days:
I am a huge lover of music, and could probably post a song explaining how I'm feeling every day. Sometimes it is easier to tell people how I feel with a song than with a whole long journal entry like this one.
Just thinking and contemplating about writing ...
So i never let any one in to what is going on with me.
because they judge...
so now I sit here alone with no support and all I want to do is cry...
and keep having very scary thoughts.....