What is Fibromyalgia
Fibromyalgia (FM or FMS or Fibro) is a debilitating chronic syndrome (constellation of signs and symptoms) characterized by diffuse or specific muscle, joint, or bone pain, fatigue...
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pain, anger, & self acceptance
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the anger:
i took a 13 week anger management class in 07.... it helped me out a ton, for the time being. but now.... starting about 2 months ago when i realized the cymbalta was a failing me and then had to get off it, i felt the anger coming back. have withdrawals for 1.5 months now and i haven't gotten any calmer, still pretty angry. and then the recent rheumatology appt that went bad (that he couldn't help me anymore) made me even angrier. not to mention that i have to file a court claim against my ex land lady FOR THE 4TH TIME!!! grrrrrr yesterday, i went to pain psychology (every monday)... guess what the topic was? ACCEPTING YOUR SELF AND ACCEPTING THE PAIN. i told them that i'm so tired of feeling this pain!!! i can't be on my feet anymore than 10 mins at a time or the pain (in my feet) gets so horrid i wanna scream!!! i can't even bare another pound of weight on my feet when it gets like that! 10 mins, that's all i got to work with for the day. that's not a lot of time!! and then i brought up about all the anger. i don't know about you, but lately i WAKE UP ANGRY. and it's like i have tons of "trip wires" waiting for some one to trigger the explosions. all it takes is the smallest thing or word. someone tell me how the hell i'm supposed to ACCEPT myself this way? and who else struggles with this? Posted on 11/24/09, 02:11 pm |
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God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference. 
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Hi hun... I hear you on the anger issue... seems I have been dealing with that issue more and more... think anger is the pain.. pain brings all of it on... as we all know.. its horrible to endure this day after day after day....
I tossed a nick nack across the room yesterday.. just for trying to change my bedding.. uhg... plus Im def in menopause.. no cycle for almost a yr now.. lots of crap from that too.. I do think what dakota wrote.. but I know even tho I have faith in my life... I fall short.. and just get so angry.... our lives have been stolen... so.. what emotion comes out.... anger... we have no choice but to accept this... and boy it isn't easy... my feet are bad as well.. my legs are driving me nuts.. and they just started to ache like a month ago... and its constant now.... heaven only knows if its the fibro or diabetes.. uhg.. think also having a stubborn personality doesn't help much.. which is me... My housework has been limited.. and when I see alot of dirt.. boy shit hits the fan... then I over do. and hurt more for days... ahh. yes... anger... can sit here and type a whole 10 pages on it.. all I can say is ... I can relate.. big hugs hun.. :)
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i feel u on this Blue.. I am so angry and many times take it out on the wrong people.. I try to be positive.. upbeat etc.. but that only lasts for so long.. and when my pms hits.. I am the devil in granny slippers!!! i am horrendous.. i know i am.. i know I am wrong.. but i dont stop myself..
I am considering taking anger management because I am angry with the pharmacy that messed up my Cymbalta dosage and overdosed me.. the thousands spent on medical care and end up nowhere.. my employer and the insurer who has been putting me thru hoops for the last 6 months to file my disability claim.. with myself for not being able to do so much and not being positive enough to keep those around me uplifted.. I AM angry.. i thought i was over it.. i wrote a beautiful journal on the 5 stages of grief and how I thought i was at acceptance.. *@&#(@& one thing is for sure.. this illness messes me up and no 2 days fall into a similiar pattern. hope calmin deep breaths help me calm down..
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I hear you about the anger. I used to wake up angry for no reason that I knew of. I told this to my doc and he gave me a Rx for Klonopin aka generic Clonazepam 0.5 mg to take twice a day. The morning anger was just gone it was such a relief. I guess it helps during the day too, it also helped during the day too. I was not having unexplainable anger and or irritable. I hope this helps but as always this is just me. Talk to your Dr. about it.
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ugh.... anger management today is not my forte. Seeing how I just posted a post in all caps lol...
any one that tells me to "accept" the pain can kiss my A**. they obviously dont live with pain. WHile we do have to accept our limitations, and we do have to accept that we may never get to accomplish the things we would like, and while we may never be pain free.... accepting that we must LIVE in a complete state of extream pain for the rest of our lives is crap. NO ONE should have to accept the pain IM in today.... NO ONE not even the people I hate.....
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oh I also want to add that telling you to ACCEPT pain is a cop out for when they dont know how to treat the pain. Almost like saying I dont know the answer but instead of me figuring it out.... you can just learn to accept it... BULL SH*T
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exactly! Bugbite, that's what i was saying!!!
i'm still gonna find SOMEthing to treat this crap so i feel less pain! i got the neurolgist appt sooner or later. i gotta call em and make one. and i got a follow up with my PCM coming up, gonna find out whatever happened to my supposed podiatrist appt.
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YES constant pain does make the anger and frustration high. It's hard to tolerate daily pain and not be angry about it. When ANY Dr. says they can't help me, I say you're FIRED ! We cannot accept it, because there is no end. I said to a "pain management DR." what are you going to do for me when I'm in so much pain I want to step out in front of a bus. He said,"that's NOT pain, that's anxiety." I said,"I'M ALL DONE HERE" and walked out....WTF !!!
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