Fibromyalgia Support Group

I have been going through hell these past few days, I stopped by Neurontin that I was taking daily at 1800 MG, I expected it to be bad but not this bad!! Ive been compensating by taking 8 Tramadol and 4 vicodin, which has been the bare minimum for sustaining my sanity, but the psychological side effects have been astonishing. My cognition and thinking has cleared up and speed up rapidly, I suddenly felt like trying to go back into pre-med, my social anxiety has increased dramatically and I have stopped visiting people, I have been getting excited for the first time about moving but also going through fits of depression. The worst has been the hypersensitivity, I wake up in the morning and if I feel an itch it feels like someone is scratching me hard with something, and I have been insanely itchy, so thats been miserable. But yeah, I can't believe this drug made so many changes in my life, and so much more for the negative rather than the positive, I am so angered that my doctors put me on this medication. I always wondered why I suddenly lost my drive to read and study medicine and science and why I felt like hanging out with my friends all the time, and I would always say really insensitive and uninhibited statements like I was drunk all the time or something, and now I have so many barriers and reservations its weird, its been a challenge and that frightens me- and since it is a GABA analogue, meaning it works on those receptors, it works on the receptors that react to alcohol or benzodiazepines, so that would explain the increased anxiety I guess.
I had a question, when will these withdrawals end, Im on day 5 I think, and its taking a lot longer than I thought. I have been taking the drug consistently for like 7-8 months I think, probably longer. Also, my memory and ability to learn has improved, which has been so relieving, and I realized the neurontin was doing barely anything for the pain but just made me care less about the pain but also made me care about everything less in my life, I stopped caring about school and all this stuff that used to be important to me and now Im free but also miserable its weird. I think nobody should take this or lyrica, its changes you, I have been so mad that my personality has become so laid-back when I am a natural neurotic, and now I remember the doctor saying that this changes the way you feel pain rather than saying it changes the pain. Nobody take this drug or lyrica. I would rather be on hardcore opiates rather than that crap, and the withdrawals are taking way tooooo long.
Posted on 07/05/09, 11:07 am