Eczema Support Group

As I grew up and and entered my teens somehow I started getting alienated from everyone else, started going more and more into my shell. I spent hours studying, even though I knew it was superfluous and I was already doing really well at school. It was at this time that I started getting pimples too, and I thought that was the end of the world.

I decided sometime when I was 13 that this couldn't go on for long. I made a conscious effort to make more friends, I left my school and joined a new one to start fresh and I completely changed my diet. I was a health freak, and worked out quite regularly. This was probably the best few years of my life, and in fact I even got a few girls to like me :)

Then when I turned 16 eczema came into my life. To be honest when it first showed up I didn't think much of it, I thought it would go away. Obviously I was wrong. It started simply as a few rashes that would come and go on my face. Eventually though it spread and I started getting more frequent rashes. I also got psoriasis on my scalp which started getting relatively severe.

I didn't know what to do. Eczema and psoriasis was undoing all my hard work. I can't look at the mirror anymore, I feel disgusted. My eczema is bad enough, but my psoriasis is really embarrassing as well because I keep flaking incessantly.

I have tried everything.... eating healthy, all sorts of mouisturisers, even steroids for a while, but nothing seemed to work. Steroids cleared the redness for a while but after learning about their side effects I promised myself never to use it again. All I do now is eat healthy, use creams and pray...

The worst thing is I don't know who to talk to. I don't want to talk to my friends or family much about it because things would get awkward and it would just bring more attention to my problem. I think thats the reason others don't mention it to me as well. Thats why whenever I'm sad all I do is turn the music up, switch the lights off and cry...

It sounds pathetic, but thats what my life is becoming. I hate it now, what seemed to be heaven is now hell. I just want to go back in time, I see my old pictures and I feel this pang of sadness and nostalgia. I still have friends but its not the same, I've gotten very self conscious... I'm like on my last straw. I'm still fighting it out though. I don't know till when, I know its incurable, but I can't seem to digest that fact. I can't live my whole life out like this... I'm taking homeopathy now and the doctor promises that the eczema will clear out in 8 months. Its been 2 weeks so far I guess the itching has reduced but I am not getting my hopes up.

I don't know why I'm posting here. I guess I don't know who to talk to and its better if I remain anonymous. My heart goes out to all the people that suffer with the same problem or other incurable diseases. I have come to value life more now and good health and urge everyone to do the same, a healthy life is severely undervalued by people around the world.

All thats left to say I guess is thanks for hearing me out
Posted on 08/15/09, 06:08 am