Eating Disorders Support Group

*HUGS* Don't be so hard on yourself. And you are NOT a failure. For one you are concerned about your ED behaviors and you sense that its not ok. Recovery is a process and not necessarily a linear path or a final destination that so many of us think it is going to be. Like anything else there are bumps and slips along the way that may cause us to stumble BUT that does not in anyway equate to failure or completely negate all the work that has been done to get to the place that you are. We are humans which no matter how much we dislike it we make mistakes. No big! Its ok! Do the next right thing and get back onto your path of recovery!
Hang in there and know that today is a new day!

beck is right. you know what you are doing so that is a really good thing. so many are in denial.

change ONE thing, ANTHING, to move towards recovery.

please remember guilt is a choice... so fight it. the m ore guilt the worse you will be.

you are not a failure, its your way of coping, and it takes time to change.

Im proud of you for reaching out !!

i just hate living like this but dont seem to have the strength to change. Got exams for the next 2 weeks and being as neurotic as i am all i can do is study, if im not studying im feeling guilty about not studying. It is now 4am in the morining and i have been up studying for an hr already, just cause i feel like sleeping is wasted time :( i hate it!
I do know what i am doing is wrong, i know it as i am doing it, but im so so so scared of change!!! I hate the way i look, (all gaunt and shit but the thought of eating more than i ate the day before or exercising less makes me so anxious its not funny :( so its not about looks at all really, just control i guess?

change one little thing.... anything....

its too hard! I'm scared :(

You CAN do anything you put your mind to!!! Don't look at the whole picture here... try something....What is one little thing you can change? Say you ate something...and instead of doing the usual...try going for a walk and clearing your mind instead of dwelling on it hun...i know that it is hard...i know it seems like you can't....BUT never say you can't because YOU CAN *hugs*

you are not alone... you are not the only sick person out there.... if they can change you can change... you have to fight and want it....

I know you are scared... Im scared a lot too... I get scared after every meal... but I fight bc I want my behaviors to stop... I want it bad..

you can do it...

I hae been doing the same but I want to live after 26 years of this. I have health issues,loose skin and no muscle tone. I have no social life,no friends,no more money than I did before and I am miserable. I am taking it 1 meal at a time and yes I know how hard this is -I have tried recovery 6 times and I am tired of feeling weak,dizzy and I even lost a crown out of my mouth due to my huge weight loss and poor nutrition. I want to be attractive with curves again and my 17 year old son needs me.YOU CAN DO IT!

It all just seems so hopeless, sorry to be whinging and complaining but i dont have anywhere else to go. i cant open up to anyone i person cause i am so embarresed about my behaviours and the way i look, which is so so gross!!! i just dont feel as if i can fight this anymore. Its been a week now since my boyfriend of 1 months dumped me cause he couldnt deal with this anymore. Im so alone, just spend the days studying to keep myself sane otherwise i feel so guilty for wasting time. Man i wish this could just all go away!!!

Of course it seems hopeless when you're convinced that you don't have any choices. I'm not saying that this is a disease than be cured through sheer willpower, it can't. Many of us have been where you are, and have found a better way so please see that there is hope. Find it in others, and believe in it for yourself and have faith. It's kind of like getting into your car and going to work. Why would you do that when you know that people get killed in automobile accidents every day? It's because of faith and trust. We just trust that we'll be OK, that we'll make it. Same concept with recovery. If you could just look at the positive side, things will automatically seem more positive with diligent practice. You have to keep at it, and that is part of the "fight". Bombarding yourself with messages such as "I can't" "It's too hard" and "it's hopeless" will only keep you in that fear-based conscienciousness that you can't have diet Jello. You can. Freedom is possible, and you deserve it. Keep reaching out, and don't tell yourself that you "can't" be honest. This disease carries enough guilt and shame that you don't have to let it destroy any attempts to help yourself. If you tell a professional, they won't judge you. You won't be the first anorexic to walk in the door and put yourself out there. Honesty I believe is one of the biggest parts of the "fight". I know how it feels to be living a lie. It sucks. It got so bad for me that I didn't even know I was lying to myself. I hope you embrace the support, love, and wisdom that is available here in this group. I'm glad you're here. If you can't believe in yourself, let us believe in you until you can. Peace.