Eating Disorders Support Group

Is any woman in this world a "normal eater"? And do we have to be one of those to be "better"?

XenaM - I'm pretty close to where you are in recovery, so I really related to what you said. I don't think I'll ever be completely carefree about food either, and I think this is okay. There is all this pressure from the docs to be relaxed about food, to never think about weight, to be able to eat any food in moderation, to have a BMI that's completely in the middle of the healthy range because that, and only that, equals recovery. Talk about black and white thinking!! Good luck with your current goals - fight for yourself and your children.

Hugs to all,
Ali

Hi Ali,

Thanks for your comments :-). So far my therapist keeps telling me to try and separate the feelings about eating from the idea that I must eat to have energy to survive. Whew ... tough one for me ... but I keep trying and I think my kids might just give me the reason I've never been able to find for myself.

Good luck on your 5d goal!

Hugs,
Xena

I was in dance and gymnastics. Everyone telling me what I had to be. Then getting onto the cheerleading squad(yes I was a cheerleader)it got way out of control. I was also in show choir and flags, all the girly stuff!
I was in the public eye alot and had a mother that fully beleived in fitting into societies view. I could not leave the house without make up and dressed perfectly. She raised me to be a pretty decoration on someones arm and told me that I would not amount to anything more then that.
My pant size mattered and anytime I wore bigger then a 3 she would get all over me about it.
I am now normal weight and healthy and go out of the house all the time in sweats a ponytail and no make up. I always think she would really have a cow knowing, so maybe its belligerence. Maybe I just have gotten over what she would think, at least I hope. The thoughts are still there and I still dread normal weight, but for right now, I will be ok with it. It took three times through treatment and several trips through medical and psyche and seeing a therapist and still seeing one and now attending a DBT path to mindful eating group and seeing a nutritional therapist, but I have a handle on things, at least this very second.

Hi guys,
I'm new here. I also struggle with all kinds of ED problems. I eat too little, I eat too much. I eat then purge. For me, it's about control and fear. It's also about punishment. I totally relate to that.