Eating Disorders Support Group

what makes you think people are making comments about your weight? do you actually hear people say things, or is it just you perception? chances are, being "skinny" (whatever your definition of that is) will not ever make you happy. the only thing to do is to accept yourself the way you are. not trying to make that sound like it's easy, because it's not. but having an eating disorder will never make you happy.

I get that, but i feel like losing weight will atleast help me feel a little bit better about myself. I need any bit i can get.

I cannot stress this enough. You DO NOT want an eating disorder of any kind. I have been dealing with this silent hell for 4 long years. You will see yourself wrong, you will develop severe OCD and a pattern of restrict, binge, purge, cry, cut, starve, and start it all over again. You will introvert yourself and draw away from your loved ones. You will lie to those you love most. You will worry your friends and family. You will have severe depression and physical issues. You will be weak and tired all the time. You will never sleep. You will become very angry and bitter and think everyone is out to get you. Your hair will fall out, your skin will be dry, your nails will become brittle. You wont shit for weeks. You will have er trip after er trip for dehydration and malnutrition. you will probably attempt suicide, if not come close. You will pass out all the time. you will loose family and friends. People will eventually give up because they dont know how to help you. you will do anything to feel "normal" and real, including cut your skin and abuse yourself in every way known to mankind. You get become so pale and thin and gaunt and look disgusting, but in your eyes, you look fat still. You meet with professionals all day long who tell you that you are dying, but in your eyes, you arent thin enough. Your life will be complete and utter hell. Now tell me, is this a life you want? No sane person would want this life. I wouldnt wish this upon my worst enemy in a million years.

Please, i beg you. Dont start down this path. It isnt worth it. I'd rather be overweight than living this way.

my hair is already falling out and I'm pale. I feel guilty if i eat though. The guilt keeps me up all night every night. Running is starting to put a tole on me. I cant run as long distance as i used to be able to. Its hard fpr me to just run 3 miles, after that my heart starts racing too quickly and it feels like it skips beats. I dont know what to do. I want to lose weight and be happy and healthy. I know how to do it, but now that i have been eating this way for 4 months straight, i cant break the bad habits ive created. i dont know what to do. gainling weight and eating alot of food is certainly out of the question

It isn't out of the question. That's something that your ED is telling you. I know I was absolutely the same way. I got forced into treatment, because, like you, I didn't want to get better despite the fact that I was near death. I cannot stress this more, *that does not have to happen to you*. Whether or not you are underweight right now, your body and your brain are starving, which is making it difficult for you to make good decisions right now. Please, please tell someone what you're going through--parents, close friend, uncle/aunt/cousin, doctor, school nurse, counselor--anyone who you trust and who is responsible enough to be able to help you get the help you need. Some people disagree with me, but in the long run I really believe that at some point anyone with an ED reaches a choice between treatment and death. I'm sorry if this came out as harsh, but please choose treatment. There is a better way to live than this.

Yea, RUN from eating disorders. They are so rough. You don't want to go there if you can still avoid it. Trust me that no matter how much you lose, if you are being propelled by an ED it will NEVER be enough. There will always be one more pound, one more roll, one more dimple to get rid of. It NEVER stops. Def see if you can find some resources to help with your self worth. An ED wont make you feel good about yourself. It will make you feel worse.