What is Eating Disorders
An eating disorder is a compulsion in which the main problem is a person eats in a way which disturbs their physical health. The eating may be too excessive (compulsive over-eating...
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I really don't have anyone to turn to. I am going through my second divorce and I think some of it has to do with my eating habits. I have lost a lot of weight lately and body fat %. My parents, who see my daily because they watch my daughter, state that I am looking too thin. I eat only organic, healthy food. (Except for a sm ice cream treat 1 x week with my daughter). I exercise daily, strength 5 days per week and cardio 7 days. I have great muscle tone and strength and I get tons of compliemtents at the gym. I do know I am obsessed with the scale and weight loss. I won't eat anything I have not "planned" for and I plan every morsel of food that goes into my mouth every day. I count each fat, protein, carb and calorie. I refuse to eat out or at anyone's home. I must make my meals myself or I really am concerned what is going into my body. After my daughter goes to bed, I read my book and eat a protein bar. There is nothing I would rather do then this and I would turn down my husband for nights out so I wouldn't miss out on "my time". I think I look fabulous but I want to keep losing. Traditional wt/ht charts indicate I am 12 lbs below "ideal" weight. I have read up on orthorexia nervousa and see a lot of similarities except that I am not miserable tracking my foods. I love it and I love the sense of control it brings. I am proud of my ability to resist foods and temptations. I am not hungry and I eat very small meals 5 times per day. Sometimes in between, I will eat nuts and spit them out instead of swallowing them becasue I love the taste but don't want the calories. This seems to satisfy me until next meal. Total cal intake is about 1300 but I burn about 600-700 cal in exercise daily as well. So total intake is low. My skin and hair look good so I don't think I am harming myself. I have no one else to ask... thanks for your time.
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I think if you are questioning that it may be a problem, it might be. I'm a lot like you- eating 5 small meals a day and I honestly love tracking everything. I also turn down friends and family to make my own meals on my own time, because I always want things my way. The way I see it is that if it starts effecting relationships and hindering fun, that can't be good. I don't understand why I can't allow myself to stray from the plan I create for myself each day. I don't like not being able to go out for desert if a friend calls. Do you feel in control yet trapped simultaneously? I feel like I have to be this way... 
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I think you may already know it is a problem, or if not, its dangerously close to becoming a problem... Your obsessed with calories, fat content... you think you look fabulous (not something i can relate to), but you want to lose more... you realise already its about the feeling of control... and if you stopped exercising or planning your meals, or restricting and stopped losing weight, likelihood is you would feel out of control... its that point where you realise that although you have been telling yourself "im in control... i could easily stop if i wanted" then you come to realise... "I can't stop!!" and it becomes apparent that it has ttaken over... and exercising and restricting is no longer a choice... you HAVE to do it! Your ED is in control... Maybe you are not yet in a situation where you have ever tried to stop, but im betting if you tried to not plan a meal, or tried not to exercise for a day, you may realise that its a problem!!! If you keep losing weight and keep on doing this to yourself, you will eventually no longer feel so good about what you are doing!!! im bulimic not anorexic, but i still have my starvation and restrictive days, and you feel good that you feel 'in control' but you will end up miserable, and in a place that a lot of us on the ED board are in now, where you start hating yourself, hating life etc all because of ED... if you think its a problem, talk to someone about it... a GP preferably!!!... you sound underweight already... if your BMI goes below 17.5... your classed as anorexic... get help before you become too scared to even ask for help!!! xxx
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Thanks for all of the great advice. I definately don't think I could stop if I wanted to. I guess I just keep telling myself that I don't want to so I don't have to accept that I may not be able to. I can't imagine life without my structure and "control". I thrive on it and enjoy it but I don't know how to "not" do it. I must exercise or I get very irritable and aggitated. I love the feeling of lifting weights and sweating through cardio and how I feel when I am done. And I just can't eat anything that is not "planned". I would rework the rest of the day in order to make something unexpected "fit". I just could not eat something and pretend it didn't matter. Just to think of this makes me a little anxious. I guess that is really obsessed.
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