What is Eating-Disorders
An eating disorder is a compulsion in which the main problem is a person eats in a way which disturbs their physical health. The eating may be too excessive (compulsive over-eating...
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Tuesday November 24, 2009
Painful Stories
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Have been putting off writing a journal because so much yucky stuff has happened lately. Was in hospital from Wednesday evening until Friday because I overdosed again. Normally only have to stay in one night but had to stay in longer because they wanted to keep an eye on liver function or something because I left it so long before getting help. Obviously it was pretty horrific. Had the antidote. ...
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On Monday my pdoc dropped my Effexor by half, from 150 to 75.
For those of you who have known me all this time I have been on DS, well, you know a different Me than I Have Been my entire Bipolar life. I had a real skid-out blow-up manic episode in the very beginning, and have been of course labeled BPI because of it. Now, since that time (March 2001, in fact, March 26 2001) my beh...1 Recommendation12 Comments -
Hello all..... I really need your support and prayers tonight. It is Friday night at 11pm.
My little pet, Molly passed away this afternoon, and I am broken-hearted. I am crying as I write this, so I hope that it's readable.
I just can't believe she's gone. She was just nipping at my fingers and eating treats yesterday.2 Recommendations16 Comments -
I have been in a lot of pain because there seems to be a war in my head. Things are much more chaotic than usual as Lisa seesm to be gathering strength and she is capable of really making big trouble as she will take money to have sex. Lisa almost got me us in trouble once when she was nearly arrested for prostitution and we have been tryng very hard to control her since then...5 Recommendations20 Comments
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I've gotten many messages from a girl who I thought was my friend, saying that she was willing to be there for me if I ever needed someone to talk to. Once, just once, I took her up on her offer. Then tonight she sends me a message saying that I contact her to much (huh? once?) and that I need to back off. She messaged me the other night because she needed someone to talk to and I was there f...1 Recommendation11 Comments
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Mentally, I'm still feeling alright. Physically though, my gut's a mess from overindulging yesterday.
My husband took me, my daughter & my parents out in celebration of my birthday to the Chinese buffet I had requested. I ALWAYS overdo it there, and since I wasn't able to purge it all immediately afterwards, I am suffering the consequences today. TRYING not...1 Recommendation10 Comments -
It is christmas eve, and I feel empty.1 Recommendation10 Comments
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I said goodbye to a good friend today.A friend who is not able to be my friend anymore. A friend who was very good to me and I was very good too but something is lost and this person is not able to be my friend anymore.Maybe in the future things will change,I feel so lost and scared right now and because I have mutual friends who know this person where I attend at my clubhouse I can't talk to...2 Recommendations11 Comments
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My Heinze is dying. He has been having little strokes or seizures.
The vet says it is sometimes hard to tell the difference - they have been coming more often and Thursday night was the worst one. He's having trouble walking and he is not eating at all today - he won't even eat liverwurst or bacon.
I am praynig so hard but hes not going to get better - he's almost 14 ...1 Recommendation19 Comments -
Is that my shadow on the wall?
Or is that really me at all.
I struggle so to see the truth---
In bygone days and loss of youth.
I write with ink upon the page,
And see such sadness and such rage.
I don't know what to tackle here---
To stand up tall
Or disappear.
Is that me, still insecure,
Wondering what I can endure?
Is there hope for what is yet to be?
Will I ever be content with me.
I' m not a numb...5 Recommendations11 Comments
