Diets & Weight Maintenance Support Group

You are not alone in this...I too have the same issues. My mom will only say I look good if I am at a decent weight. My closest friends have also gained weight too so we can kind of laugh together, but I am still the second heaviest and that sucks!
I was thinking about it yesterday and I dont want to become an agorahphobe (sp), but I hate even going to the store!

Totally no, you are not the only one with this issue. I am just like you, I have the same feelings that you are experiencing right now. Sometimes I even check the people in the room to see if there is someone heavier than me. Like you said, the psychological part is the worst I think so I started going to therapy and it has worked, it not only has helped me with how I look at people but in my relationships and more... I just take one day at a time :)

I completely relate also. I hate doing anything where it involves other ppl because of my weight and the way i feel about myself. I so badly want to not feel this way anymore.

The psychological side is the nastiest, you are so right....I know i am still Cathi, but the mirror makes me feel so inferior, and wrong...i am unhealthy looking, and just want to look and feel healthy again...and together, we can do it!

Ahhh yes the old self esteem problem i can relate to that my partner doesnt help sometimes either....He says he wants the hot 20 something i used to be i tell him i want him to dye his hair and get that defintion to his back back and shave that goatie...
I havent bought any new clothes in a while because i hate going in there and finding it doesnt fit the average size in NZ i think is a Size 12 and the largest in the shops i like to shop in is 14 i am about a size 16....Also i dont like the way i lie on my side and gravity sets in (argh).I have a great senses of humour so it gets me through but at times i seriously feel like slamming something., I look in the mirror and i REALLY dont like whats lookng back... I remember that i am a choice person and i love to laugh but i also want to lose weight because I dont like it...My partner could nag me or even walk out and unless i want to i wont lose weight.....

Laugh and cry dont bottle feelings up and remember its you that matters the most......

Again...you're not alone. I too feel very similar feelings about walking into a room, backing out of social functions, etc. I feel much better when I'm online than out in public. I used to think being 'skinny' was everything - now I'd just like to feel healthy and 'like me' again. I haven't bought new clothes for years...I hate shopping. The last time I shopped I found something that fit and bought the same thing in different colors.

You are not alone. Oh, how we beat ourselves up. We are worthless, lazy, terrable, fat, gross, unworthy of love. Would we ever say those things to a friend? NO, but we tell ourselves these things and worse. If we could be civil to ourselves. You are worth so much more than your weight, we all are.