Depression - Teen Support Group

It's complicated. There's no one way to do it. You just keep trying and hope that someday something will help.

I don't know if I'll ever be able to forgive myself for all the things I've done but that just pushes me to try to be better in the future.

I try to make things right again by showing how much I care and by how determined I am to make everything right.

There's no way I'll be able to forgive myself for everything I've done. Some things I've done in the past still haunt me, and probably always will. Time does heal somewhat, but not completely. I try to put what I can behind me and look forward, hopefully to bigger and better things. I always try to apologize and let people know that I do care, even though it seems like I might not, and I try not to hurt everyone again.

What if a close friend leaves you and you know it's your fault but she won't listen or even talk to you anymore?

I know the guilt can get to you, but try not to be so hard on yourself. And I would give your friend time. When people hurt me, I usually need some space for a little while before resuming the relationship. Friendship/relationship troubles are rough, but if you two can get through it eventually, your relationship will likely be even stronger.

I hope you're right, Melly. I knew this would happen if I began to show how I felt towards her...

I don't know the details to your situation, but I can say that there is nothing wrong with expressing your feelings as long as they aren't extremely crude and hurtful to others. Considering that, maybe you should try talking to your friend in a few weeks or so? You can tell her that if she's not comfortable with changing your relationship, she doesn't have to, providing that is part of your dilemma. People tend to be a little more forgiving around this time of year; just an observation.

If she does forgive me and we become friends again, I can't tell her anything about what I'm feeling. I hate losing my friends like that.

Since I have no helpful answers here..

I'm just going to give youa big good luck :) and my best wishes Cloud