What is Depression Teen
Adolescent depression is a disorder occurring during the teenage years marked by persistent sadness, discouragement, loss of self-worth, and loss of interest in usual activities. ...
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So here's my story. I've been dealing with depression for...about 3 and a half years now. I kept it a secret for until my sophomore year of high school. My depression is on and off- for months I'll be okay, then for a few months I'll be seriously depressed again. I've had suicidal thoughts and tried to commit suicide my freshman year of hs. After a fight with a friend a couple years ago, I told a couple friends and my parents about my depression and I started going to therapy. Therapy made everything worse- I felt like I was being treated like a mental case. My parents didn't make anything better- my dad chose to ignore the fact that I was seriously depressed. My mom treated it like something that I should get over in a couple days, and that I am insane just for considering killing myself. No one understood, but in a few months I was in my "okay phase" and stopped therapy. Everyone thinks everything is okay with me now.
Well everything's still not okay, and I'm more depressed than I've been in a long time. My mom got mad at me earlier for no reason, and she made my depression worse than usual today, so much worse that I spent all afternoon thinking about killing myself. I'm afraid of what I might do to myself. I don't want to tell anyone again because I don't wanna return to therapy or get sent to a hospital because of suicidal issues...I don't know what to do. Posted on 11/01/09, 05:11 pm |
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I understand what you are going through, my dad ignores me too when i'm having a hard time with my depression. My mom thought I was being a drama queen when I told her about my suicide attempt. she took me to a therapist once, I said absolutely nothing to the councilor because she treated me in such a rude way. I told my mom I would never go to a councilor again. then she took me to my pediatric doctor-he gave me some medication (didn't help actually made it worse), and later we went back and he gave me new meds. they work now, but not as much as i would have hoped- he told my mom that counseling can make it worse. what helped him a lot (his brother committed suicide and had depression too) was to write in a journal, or to talk into a video recording and throw it away later if you want. I try that now and it does help.
try to do something you love! if you don't know, try something new! i know that can be very hard, but I tried lacrosse when all this was happening and I fell in love with it! if you love animals spend some time with them. sometimes the only person that can make you happy is yourself. this was extremely hard for me to accept, but now that I have I feel i can control my depression better. Hope you feel better! if you need to talk i'm here. 
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well i know how you feel but for me is much harder cause i haven't told enyone i try to tell my sister but she just took it as a joke and my mom she is to into her life she can't deal with anything i think am going to go crazy in my house i just cann't deal with it and my dad well i haven't seen him in weeks cause my parents are divorce soo he is happy with his little family while am dying of stree i mean am only 13 and i have to be a adult in my house cause my mom and my sister are always fighting and my step dad do absolutly nothing he just says -GO CONTROL YOUR MOM AND SISTER- and am like wtf am still a kid i want lo live happy right know i really don't even want to live..soo somebody please help me..
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If you are having suicidal thoughts like that, you need to do something. Distract yourself, get out of the house, call somebody, DO SOMETHING. Don't kill yourself. I've tried 4 times and failed every time. And although I may have suicidal thoughts in the future, I will never attempt to kill myself again because I saw how scared and hurt my mom and I just couldn't do that to her. But if nothing is working and you really think you are going to kill yourself, you need to call a hotline or tell somebody. You can call 800-273-TALK or 800-SUICIDE(784-2433). And if that doesn't help, you should really get someone to take you to the hospital. I have been to the psych ward 4 times and although it's scary at first, sometimes it really helps and they can keep you safe so you know you cant hurt yourself, and sometimes they can find a medication that will work for you and help your depression. That's the best advice I can give you, and I know what it feels like to constantly want to die, you're not alone sweetie. And im here if you need to talk.
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I understand what your going through I have suffered with depression for nearly a year now, and people think that as soon as I seem normal that everything is just fine, but it's not. I think you should seek help from diffrent therapists, the one I see isn't all that great but I do see a counceller who is such a great person to talk to. Have you tried medication? It can help.
But in the mean time try letting your feelings out another way besides self harm. Like drawing writing, poetry, writing song lyrics, painting, anything creative really, also I sometimes cut my hair when I feel like self harming. It doesn't always work but hey you have to keep strong okay? I'm here anytime you want to talk.
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Thanks everyone. You guys are pretty awesome =) I'll try to take all your advice to heart.
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