Depression Supporters Support Group

im not sure where to start as i cant even remember when this started. Anywho, From the time i can remember like 4 or 5 years old i remember being paranoid, always felt like someone was watching me no matter where i was except in the bathroom. 6 months ago i was diagnosed with depression which i've actually felt i've had all my life the same symptoms are there that have always been but a few months ago i started developing new symptoms almost weekly and this still occurring. The biggest one is the other me. She talks to me, she guides me, she comforts me. It sounds like a mental issue huh. Thats what i kept telling myself until she showed me what she was talking about and she is very real. Or i am really crazy.The thing is i've always been pretty smart and learn very easily, but these past few months my mind is failing me big time. At this point right now i can no longer remeber what i did yesterday or last week or in the past few months at all. I am starting to forget memories of my children, Im only 23 what is going on. I see pictures of me and my boys and dont have any memory of that day. My husband tells me about things we do and have done all the time and at one point i was convinced that he was cheating on me because he could recall event he had with me that i couldnt but he has proof! Everything is slipping away from me, i dont know what to do anymore i've been on medication nothing helps. I have a feeling that i will die soon within the next few years and i cant shake that feeling but i've also had that feeling since i was 10. I look in the mirror and have no clue to this day what i look like. i do not see the same person in the mirror as people do when they look at me. When i look at pictures alot of the time i dont recognize me i see another person there. i see glitches? in the environment i just need to know whats happening
Posted on 06/08/11, 05:09 pm