Depression Support Group

I had been very depressed this past month. Moreso than normal. I was at the brink of total despair many many times. I was even afraid to drive for fear of crashing my car. I fired my pdoc of 20+ years this past week. This has been coming for a long time...maybe two years. I told him 4 weeks ago I was suicidal and he did nothing to help me. He offered no help called no help and sent me on my way five minutes after I arrived in his office. I am in the works of getting a new pdoc. I have an intake on Tuesday at an outpatient clinic. Last Friday I was scheduled for an ECT. During the triage admission for it I told the nurse what was happening and told her how I was truly feeling....I rarely tell them how I truly feel (don't do that it doesn't help). The pdoc that does my ECT talked to me and was understanding and genuinely cared. He asked if I needed to be admitted as an inpatient but I told him that I would be better after the ECT. He said okay. I got the treatment done and I feel remarkable! I am not having any anxiety, depression or suicidal thoughts. I go for another ECT this coming Friday to keep me on my feet. I know there's alot of debate about ECT's but for me they help soo much. I take my meds as prescribed but they only work to a point. The ECT's help lift me back up to where I feel good about myself and life in general. I am uncertain about my future right now, so I'm taking it one day at a time. I know that whatever is in my path I can go through it and be okay on the other side...sometimes it takes alot to get through and seems hopeless while in it, but it got better for me. I'm grateful I didn't give up. I'm grateful that I have close friends that know what to say and are there for me.
Posted on 07/15/12, 07:27 am