Depression Support Group

I am a twenty year old student living with my parents due to a two year long heroin addiction. As a result, I am left with horrible depression, fatigue and chronic, widespread pain. Perhaps I was self medicating. I have good days mainly with my mother because she is so upbeat. When she goes to work, I start feeling worse. What compounds this is my father. Where should I begin. I love the man but sometimes he says things that really hurt and do not go away. Im losing it again tonight. He is accusing me of not walking the dogs with him, which is the basis for his "everyone screws him" argument. I try to do my best and cope and help the man but I can't take this much longer. Ive got twenty dollars and scoring some pills or heroin just to take the edge off living here is sounding better in my devilish side. Sure, sometimes I cannot walk the dog or wake up for school when he is here alone. However, just because I feel better when my mom is around does not mean I am somehow trying to attack my father. I'm sick of it.
Posted on 11/06/09, 02:11 am