Depression Support Group

I'm sorry that you're having such a difficult night. What happened to make you so done with everything? Please don't do anything to harm yourself, stay here and talk.

I understand, I feel the same way. I wish I had the guts to end it

Just life. I felt "better" for some "months" and now I'm right back to the place I have been my whole life. In this hell hole. I hate life. Almost everything about it. I'm miserable. In pain and don't want to live anymore.

I really hope you can hang on, one day at a time. I know for me, there was a period of time I really wanted to die but my life is so much different now. Things can change for you too. It sounds like things were better for a period of time for you, what was different then? Were any circumstances different or just your emotions? Would you consider going in to the hospital for help? Have you done that before?

Yeah, I've doe that before. And when I say before I mean probably a total of 17 or 18 times all within the last 5 years. I would not go back. I don't want to go to a hospital. I mean, am I going to do something? I don't know. Do I have pills in my hand right now? No. Do I want to go grab some? Yes.

I don't know why I felt better before. Nothing was "different" that I can think of. I can't do this all again.

I know when I'm in a very dark place, everything is so overwhelming.... I'm really sorry that things are so difficult and painful for you right now. Do you have people in your life that are aware that things are so hard for you right now?

They don't know there this bad. My mom doesn't know anything. A couple of my friends from work know that something is going on but nothing in detail.

Don't be sorry....you didn't do anything. It just sucks and I don't want to hang on anymore.

Is your mom supportive, like if she knew how you were feeling would she want to help and validate what's going on or not? Are your friends from work like good friends that you trust?

I love my mom but I don't talk to her about anything like this. I mean. she would just send me to the hospital.

Yes, I trust my friends very much....I'm not about to call them to tell them that I would like to off myself though.

What keeps you from sharing with your friends how you're feeling? Do you just think that they wouldn't understand? I know for me when I've been depressed the isolation is part of what sucks so much about the whole thing. I think it's good you're posting on here, I hope that you will keep doing that and not hurt yourself.