Depression Support Group

Oh I wish this was a place made just for me

where my soul ran wild and my heart was free.

where sadness was a feeling that I never feel

where emptiness and sorrow just could not be real.

where the crying that I do would go away

where I go to sleep so happy for another day.

where I always want to live and never to die

where kind words are spoken and its not goodbye.

oh I wonder if this place could truely be

and if it is then I am wishing that its for more than just me.



Although I am depressed and cry all the time, I have a longing in my heart for better times. I sit every day knowing that I am going deeper and deeper into this dark black hole and my meds don't help a bit, I am holding on so tightly to the light. I can still see the light. I remember the happiness and joy that I had every day of my life. Funny how I can remember it but I cant remember how it felt. I wish for a day that I woke up happy, was happy all day and went to bed happy. If I could get just one day like that, I would work hard at making the next day the same. Now when I wake, I sit on the edge of my bed and look out the window at nothing for a long, long time and there is not a thought in my mind and is not one good feeling in my heart and soul. As I go through my day I may have a few moments where I laugh or maybe just smile but I do so with caution because I know that when I lay down to sleep at night I will be crying again. This has gone on for nearly 4 years. It has become a way of life now for me. however I am afraid because I know that when the day come that I just accept this as my way of life, the light goes out and I will never get out of the drak black hole.
Posted on 11/09/09, 04:11 am