What is Depression
Clinical depression is a state of sadness or melancholia that has advanced to the point of being disruptive to an individual's social functioning and/or activities of daily living....
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Clinical depression is a state of sadness or melancholia that has advanced to the point of being disruptive to an individual's social functioning and/or activities of daily living....

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I'm just so depressed! I feel so hopeless! I mean I dont just feel that way with lots of evidence to prove otherwise. I really have proof!
I have a panic disorder that I have had since I was 6. I'm 24 now. I have a son thats almost 3 years old. I split up with his father over a year ago and I've been struggling ever since! I used to have like 3 panic attacks a day and got so agorophobic that I didnt want to leave my room! Much less the house. Well I got where I could do things and go places again. But I have worked and worked and never got where I dont have panic attacks almost everyday! I have tried to hold down a job and go back to school and I failed. I always fail at jobs. I loose them within a month or so bc I end up having severe panic attacks and after a few of them, they dont want you to work for them anymore. I go to the ER alot and I do feel rediculous for it! But I swear when I go its bc I really think I have something serious thats going to kill me! I cant keep jobs! If I cant keep a job, I cant provide for my son and my son's dad is an alcoholic that doesnt work. I have to have money to buy my son's things and I dont. DSS gave me some money but they also put me in a class and I missed 2 days lastweek and I might not pass bc of that and if I dont, I loose the money each month. I have tried to get disabilty for this bc I try as hard as I can and still cant shake these attacks! But they wouldnt give me any disability. This has caused me problems in school throughout the years, its caused me problems in everything in my life! I feel so useless and SCARED!!!!! I love my son so much! I cant loose him! I'm fine to take care of him at home. I just dont know what to do! I cant do anything it seems! I'm a failure! I have proof! Posted on 11/08/09, 10:11 pm |
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panic and anxiety is terrible. whats kinds of meds have you tried? i understand your frustration. if you feel your doc isnt listening or trying to really help with medicine alternatives, you need to find a more caring doc. also you should try and research meditation, and various relaxing techniques you can begin practicing. so when you begin to have these things you will be better able to defuse them. as far as feeling out of shape or not having energy tai chi can be useful as exercise and also as a relaxation technique. also yoga can be helpful too. maybe a class in either of these would be helpful. and you might meet some friends too.
pple have trouble getting ssri, some have to apply several times. they make it difficult. here is site i found that outlines the procedure and gives some organizations you can ask for help or questions. ive had the anxiety attacks to the point i was agoraphobic, running out at 3am and hoping i didnt have one. and then coming back to my cave. i know how it feels and how it control ya. try some of these things i mentioned. buddhist, mindful thinking, is also something that can help but takes practice. lots of infor on that on the internet. keep trying and gl. http://www.nami.org/Content/Conten...
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It sounds like you need help, trying to do everything alone isn't good, aren't there any support services that can assist you help you say, clean the house, or look after your son, giving you time to do something for yourself? that would help much more than than them give you yet more things to do, wouldn't it?....
As wit the Panic and Anxiety and Agorophobia and Depression, that's something I'm not certain I can help with, but I do believe much of that will ease if you get the ball rolling in a positive direction, once you realize that you CAN do this, and if you are being at least partly successful, you won't have reasons to be as Anxious, Depressed and Panicked, etc... The problem is finding a way to do that... The hardest part is when your fears are all so very real.... you have to realize that its ok to feel this way, to be scared ... its a warning, so you should be, the fear in this case is a good thing its telling you somethings wrong (although I expect its not that you needed to know that right about now)... what you need to do is get friends and support workers and a plan of attack for this situation, you need a way where you CAN take control and you feel comfortable doing it... The future doesn't have to be dismal, and I'm sure your son does (if not someday will) know you love him... also about things like your missing classes, etc... its these attacks and things that are causing the problem, its a legitimate medical reason, get the doctor to write you out a letter or report to take to the training provider, they may not be able to pass you (since you havn't done the work) but they should be able to find some way to do what you too need to, place the blame where it belongs, not all of this is YOUR fault, its simply the situation you are in... Also in order not to lose a job you're going to need some support work there too, you have to go into it with taking your history into account, You, your doctor, and if you have someone managing your case (as in an employment consultant of some kind) have to work together to find a way to do this... Your not slack, by the sound of it, your not missing work because you want to, your not taking time off to go party, you want to work, you want to do whats right, as long as you make that clear to them, they'll try to help you find ways to combat this... I'm not saying it will be easy, but it is something I believe you CAN do...
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I suffer from anxiety as well. Its awful that we go through this. You definitely have a lot on your plate. I know this may be hard, but try to find 10 things each day that you're grateful for, no matter how small. Make sure it's unique to that day. It doesn't have to be a big thing. It could be the weather or something that you watched on TV that made you smile a little.
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Thanks so much for your words of encouragment! I'm going to try to finish this class. I only have until Friday and unless missing those 2 days have failed me, I'll get a certificate. Then I have a job lined up after that. It should be the best job I've ever had bc it pays $10 an hour instead of minimum wage. The best part is that its in the place where I used to go job hunting. Its a place that helps you find work. They said I'm so diligent that they want me working with them. They have become friends of mine and they know that I have a panic disorder. Hopefully they will be understanding. I know I will give it my ALL! I want to keep this job more than anything! And they will send me for further education later they said. I'd like to work with mentally handycapped ppl some day. They are a company that helps ppl get back on their feet by finding them jobs and sending them back to school. Like I said, I'm going to give it my ALL!!!!
Thank you so much for the advice! I will look into yoga and buddism. I'll also try to name those 10 things each day. Thanks so much!
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