What is Depression
Clinical depression is a state of sadness or melancholia that has advanced to the point of being disruptive to an individual's social functioning and/or activities of daily living....
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I am counting down the days until I will come face to face with one of my major abusers. I will smile even though I will be gritting my teeth- he will get to touch me while I submit to a hug just to go along with the act that nothing ever happened- And another holiday will be a trigger fest because of the general wrong idea that because people are linked by blood, they are obligated to see eachother and love one another.
I don't like talking about him. I don't like posting about him here. Of all my paranoia, I worry the most that he knows of my account and checks for my postings. I just don't know what to do anymore. I am getting so broken trying to pretend that I am whole. I don't know how long I can pretend. I know what I have to do-- my financial needs do not meet up with my psychological needs. It would be healthier to confront him or just ignore him, to cast him out of my life. But I can't do that. And he's smug about it. So, we'll pretend for a little bit longer, and I look forward to my day of independence when I can walk away forever. But until then- life is getting really hard. Posted on 11/08/09, 05:11 pm |
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Sabishi You DO NOT have to let this person HUG you. Just stare this person in the eye and say " I would prefer if you didn't touch me. " Take back your power 
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What druid said x2
Hugs and strength and universe juice
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I agree with Druid as well!
I had the same situtation, had to face a family member at holiday functions. Our converstaion was limited and there was ZERO physical contact, no hug no handshake, nada zip zilch zero! When he had his second child, a daughter, I pulled him aside and told him if he ever hurt her life he hurt me I would make his life a living hell. It makes me sick thinking he has kids, but says he has changed. Don't let him take your power. I no longer go home. I have not seen any of my family in three years and I don't really miss them. I have moved on and am a better person for it. Screw what they think or what they say, you take care of YOU!
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