Depression Support Group

you could say that its not there or your fault that you have derpression and anixty. did i understand your question?

no like anything on the internet/leaflet that anyone knows of..

ohhh soorrry! then i've got nothing. darn it i thought i was helping! well good luck!

Sorry bud.. I've got nothing.

Guess it's time to get googlin!!

f you do find something, try not to give them something that seems too much like "dr talk" if you get what I mean

yeh lol thats what loads were like.. :/

I know this is not what you are looking for.. but this is something I wrote a long long time ago and showed to a really good friend of mine so she could understand how it really felt for me. It helped a lot, she seemed to get it more after reading it. Though it doesn't explain WHY I feel the way I do when I'm depressed, it at least showed her HOW I am feeling so she could help me deal.

Depression Hurts... here’s how it feels

- I feel hopeless
- I feel inadequate
- Life seems meaningless and pointless
- I feel like I’m simply existing, not alive
- I feel numb, cold, and emotionless most of the time
- It feels like the entire world is closing in on me, yet life is a distant and foreign thing
- I feel immense guilt all the time
- My whole body aches
- I’m tired
- I’m either emotionless or extremely sad
- I feel like an alien in the world of human beings
- I feel lonely and isolated – even when I am not alone
- I feel like no one notices me
- I feel physically sick at times
- I become unmotivated
- I can’t concentrate on even the simplest of tasks
- I can’t understand things that are normally entirely within my intellectual range
- I can’t think coherently
- I have a hard time making decisions
- I lose pleasure in life’s activities
- I find it difficult to care about anything because it seems pointless, but then I feel guilty for not caring
- I feel like it must be my fault that I feel the way I do
- I become angry and frustrated with myself
- I lack passion
- I feel insignificant and undeserving
- I feel lazy
- I feel uncreative and dull
- There is no vibrancy in life, only grey
- I cry at the drop of a hat and constantly feel on the verge of tears
- I fantasize about dying and about being inflicted with physical pain
- Sometimes I inflict pain on myself
- I hate myself for not being able to overcome this
- I feel ugly
- Every task seems daunting and impossible
- It feels like my mind is completely blank for most of the day
- I lose my sense of self
- I forget things I normally would not forget
- It feels like the whole world keeps moving while I’m standing still
- I feel trapped
- I fantasize about breaking every object I see
- I feel like I’m not really here; that I can see the world and touch the world, but I can’t feel it and I can’t change it and it doesn’t know I’m here
- I feel lost and confused
- I lose interest in socializing and find it difficult to be around other people, but when I’m alone I feel isolated and afraid
- I feel like there is something evil about me
- I give up on my goals, or at least wonder why I should bother
- I feel like everyone is judging me
- I feel disgusting and think that if people knew what was going on inside me they would think I was disgusting too
- I feel disconnected with myself and with the world
- I feel immoral
- I feel like giving up
- I feel like no one knows or understands me nor wants to
- I feel fake because I am so disconnected from myself that I have no idea who I am so everything I do seems phony
- I feel guilty when I think about suicide because of the pain it would inflict on my loved ones, but then I feel angry with them for being so selfish as to not just let me go
- All I want to do is hide but there is nowhere to go where this won’t follow me
- I cease to live and only exist; I feel dead inside
- I feel like I am wandering about this world aimlessly
- I feel overwhelmed by everything
- The smallest inconveniences seem like huge obstacles that I can’t overcome
- I feel like I am looking at the world through a glass box, not really part of it "

HOLY CRAP!!!!!!!!! I can relate to all of that!!!!

sboom i have to say you hit the nail on the head. at least three fourths of what you said is how i feel.. terrible but true... how in the world can a person get past all of those feelings about themselves. expectations of those in your life not suffering with depression could never understand any of this. i do!! i live with it everyday....

By working on one of the issues at a time...

I've put a hell of a lot of effort into getting better in the last 5 years. A lot. I still get depressed. I still get extremely depressed. I still go through periods of time where I am depressed for months on end. But having worked through many of the feelings on that list, by having taken ownership over them and accepting that these feelings are reflective not of myself as a person but of a disease with which I struggle, I find it much easier to pull myself out of slumps, or to at least accept that I am in a slump and that I need to just hang in there and get through it.

It is extremely frustrating sometimes having these kinds of feelings and KNOWING they are not based in reality. Because I find myself second guessing myself a lot when I am depressed. Like when I am feeling totally hopeless and worthless, I can tell myself all I want that I am going somewhere in life and I am valuable, but there's always that part of me that wonders if maybe I really am a useless nobody and I am just fooling myself. It's hard to shut that part of me up when I am depressed, and I often fail.. but somehow I manage to keep that part of me balanced with my true self - the woman who KNOWS that eventually she will succeed.