What is Depression
Clinical depression is a state of sadness or melancholia that has advanced to the point of being disruptive to an individual's social functioning and/or activities of daily living....
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I've fought depression for such a long time. People look at me and what I have been through, a bad marriage, husband cheated on me during a pregnancy, divorced him, was a very bad divorce. Overcame that. Had abusive parents, finally kicked them out of my life and for a while it seemed like I was in a good place, no one was putting me down, abusing me, etc. But I've realized how alone I am. After my divorce I lost all my friends, they were all married and I guess they don't want a single friend. Then all my relatives don't want anything to do with me after I disown my parents especially they don't know anything about the truth behind it all. So, sure, I've come through a lot but to end up where???? Alone and empty. I hate what my life has become. I don't enjoy life at all. It just sucks.
Posted on 11/07/09, 01:11 am |
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It sounds like you've overcame so much adversity! It's great that you're not allowing abusive people in your life anymore. It does take time to meet new friends but at least when you find them they should be healthy people since you have new expectations. Are you able to get out and do things where you have a chance to meet new people? 
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Honestly, no. I don't get out a lot. I am scared of people and if they will like me or if I do get to know them will they end up hurting me like everyone else in my life has hurt me?? I'm trying so hard to get involved in a church but it takes EVERYTHING I have to go. I went one Sunday but haven't been back in several weeks. I want to go back but am just so scared to go.
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im sorry, i can relate to the loneliness and having no one. im in the same leaky boat, and it does suck. i was just saying that to myself a bit ago about all thats happened, whats its taken out me, and then for what. to maybe end up this way for the rest of my life. its sad and its also scary. you do have your kids and i hope you will always have a close relationship with them. i think that helps, not the same as having a partner in life, but knowing someone cares does help. hope tomorrow is a better day for you.
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thats true, being very hurt by pple does make one wonder if it wont happen again. its almost given me a complex like there is something wrong with me. but there are alot of pple in the world that just talk, but their words mean nothing. hard to meet quality pple these days, in church or anywhere else.
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I get that way sometimes, I have an anxiety disorder which makes it hard to go into new situations with people at times. Have you been in counseling at all? One thing that may be helpful for you if there's any in your area would be a support group for single moms. I'm just thinking that would be a good way to connect with some people with common interests.
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Wow, reading that was like looking right into a mirror watching my image talking to me. If we looked at all like each other, that would just be weird. The only difference is that I never married him/them....
You have a beautiful child. That is something I will never have, and is a blessing. The exchange of a mother's love to a child and vise versa is pretty precious if you ask me. I understand your loneliness, and I can give you some advice someone gave to me once. Go join a bowling league or some kind of fun hobby that involves other people. That way you'll meet new people outside of work and there isn't any pressure to be anything specific. I have yet to take that advice, but I plan on it. How about you? Winter
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Here's another idea. Go to Michaels or a hobbyshop and take a painting class. Usually those are small, sometimes just you and the instructor. That might get your feet wet. What do you think?
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I went into one of my favorite sites. www.angelashelton.com
.....and someone asked her what "community" meant to her.... .....and she said something close to..."It's like a fair or convention, and we all have our seperate booths, each with something to offer something different to give." That idea seemed less intimidating to me. We are just all different, and if you don't want what I have to offer, then you just keep walking. And others who do will come. Just a good thought, Winter
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I've looked into a bowling league and never have followed through. When it comes down to it I just would rather be sitting on my couch by myself. But then these times come and I wonder why I am so lonely and I have no one in my life?? It makes no sense. I'm just so much more comfortable in the safety of my home, it doesn't take any energy to sit on my couch!
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Well, I am a bit biased. Everyone will kick me for saying this, but I like my couch/bed too. I like being home. ...and if it makes me happy, I do it.
But I digress......What about the painting thing?
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