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I'm concentrating alot on believing in God these days. I've always prayed. I see everything crashing down and all I can do is think of this image in my head.

I'm sitting at a pue in a beautiful dim lit church. And there is a choir quietly singing O' Holy night. I'm praying on my knees and my head is laying on the pue in front of me.....and it's just me and God. I want to stay here forever, because this is where I feel I belong. Maybe this is why I don't talk so much. Maybe I'm just praying. Maybe I am "peace being still".

But, I have to say that if you were God-like, you would be sad. You would suffer from all the pain in the world. You would suffer that there was suffering. I feel God is where peace is, and that's where I belong. This is my personal relationship with God. I am born and raised Catholic, but this is my personal relationship with my religion and God. I've always been this way, and I've always feared being away from God.

I don't mean to get into the rules of religion, or discuss why I shouldn't believe what I believe. But, I would like to rant about being close to God as I know it. It sounds crazy, but I think I have gone crazy actually. But, when I think of being in this church, for some reason, I don't feel crazy. I feel I am exactly where I should be.

There! That's my crazy rant! Please don't throw Fruit-Loops at me. I really like to share my thoughts when I can.

Thanks for letting me,
Winter
Posted on 11/07/09, 01:11 am
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Reply #1 - 11/07/09  1:45am
" Finding God can be very hard. Some here have been victimized by people claiming to speak for God. Others fall into a crowd that believes that THEY know God, and resent any opinions to the contrary.

I am happy that you are finding your peace! "
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Reply #2 - 11/07/09  2:01am
" i come in peace, i throw no fruit-loops. everyone has their own opinions and ideas on the subject.

the ones that bother me are the ones thinking they know it all, pushing it on others, when they dont know anymore than the rest of us for certain. "
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Reply #3 - 11/07/09  2:06am
" Yeah I agree ooookfine (4's my lucky number). Those are not my intentions whatsoever. It's just when I write a journal, I kinda wish someone can hear me and accept it. So, I wrote it in here. Thank you for accepting it.

P.S. I can't remember the last time I've been treated so kind (ly?). (oops)

Winter "
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Reply #4 - 11/07/09  2:11am
" I'm glad that you feel that you are where you are supposed to be.

in my own life...I have no need for any god. I can live a meaningful life with no god...
peace to you~

I suffer from the people of the world's pain....I feel it.

but it is a matter of being able to overcome that. "
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Reply #5 - 11/07/09  2:25am
" I can't overcome the world's pain. The world is too big and the pain to omuch for me to overcome. I stand alone.

I think that's great that you can live a meaningful life with no god. To live a meaningful life at all is amazing.

Love,
Winter "
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Reply #6 - 11/07/09  2:40am
" I think that a huge part of coming to peace with all the trouble in the world is to know that we can make our little part of the world just a little better. If everybody tried to do this then the world would indeed be better. "
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Reply #7 - 11/07/09  2:55am
" true. we can only try. "
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Reply #8 - 11/07/09  4:52am
" i dont know what i believe anymore, i figure its like this. we are on our own here, and maybe there is some kind of score card as to where we start and what we do with what we have from there. so maybe in the end it will matter what kind of person ya are, and what self-less things one does . but that i dont know. i just try to do the right thing, and treat pple like id hope to be treated. some pple feel confort from thinking god is with them they feel less alone more able to handle life, thats great if it helps them. but everyone is different.

when i was asking god for guidance and trying hard to follow that path, things continued to get worse, there was no let up in the rain, it was worse than ever. eventually i felt i wasnt being heard, or something. i used to joke and say , id get a recording when id phone him. somethng like, "sorry i cant take your call im busy, helping tom cruise make still more money he doesnt deserve. leave your number, if you wish". click.

strangely, ive had 3 visions in my life too, very real and very strange. something ill never forget. one was, one of my dogs, that had passed away, one was kimberly bergalis, that died of aids in the 90's and one was jesus. i believe they were real.

i dont have peace i dont think i probably ever will. for one reason i worry about the causes i care about alot. wishing i could do more, feeling angry and frustrated at the world. caring sensitive pple have a harder go in this world, i believe. seems to be an easier road for the selfish ones that walk over others and never look back. so much ill never understand. hope everyone finds what they need. "
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Reply #9 - 11/07/09  6:07am
" Winter,
have you read the book of Job in the Old Testament? He believed, he lived his life to be a true follower of God in every way. God took everything from him and Job couldn't understand why God was punishing him so much.
I wouln't tell you the ending and you may not get the answer.
You need to read The New Testament for the answers to what belief and seeing is all about.
The Bible takes on a whole new meaning once you have asked Jesus and the Holy Spirit into your life.
Satan believes, he does not ask forgiveness or ask for Jesus to be his Lord and Saviour.
Being a Christian isn't some easy road to eternal peace. It is the hardest road because we are free to make mistakes. We are free to know that for everything wrong we do, it's another pin that Jesus took to the Cross with Him so that you will not be blamed.
GOd IS love, He sometimes need to show us this through suffering. Only hem can he work through us.
Peace Winter and the knowledge that God loves you even when you believe He has deserted you. God stands still for you, don't walk away from Him. "
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Reply #10 - 11/07/09  7:22am
" More power to you in your journey,I for one have no specific diety... "

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