What is Depression
Clinical depression is a state of sadness or melancholia that has advanced to the point of being disruptive to an individual's social functioning and/or activities of daily living....
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I thought it would be good just to let you guys know a little about me, just so you know me better. I'd love you hear about you guys too.
So from the beginning. I'm the oldest of two girls, my sister is 6 years younger and a bit of a suprise because I was a high risk pregenacy, my mom had three miscarriages before I was born and was told she probably wouldn't have any more children- I wanted a brother but I love her anyway. My parents have always had a rocky relationship, I was very nervous as a child - constantly in fear that I'd wake up one morning and my dad would be gone. When I was young I felt closer to my dad because he was home more, he wasn't working and my mother worked full time as a nurse. when I was a teenager, I couldn't figure out why my parents where together - so am not sure. Because they never seemed happy. I felt guilty that they were unhappy. As I got older, I became shy- not because it was my personality but because I was afaid of judgement. We lived in a very small town and kids are be cruel to a girl who would rather read then party and was chubby. I never really felt like I fit. I got good grades through school and kept mostly to myself. When I was 15, two things happened- I started having cronic pain in my jaw(tmj) and in May, just after i turned 15 my cousin who was only 5 months older, the closer thing I came to having a brother, was killed. I won't go into detail but it drew a line in my life. There was before and after. I think that was the first time I relized I was depressed. Life after Josh died seemed darker, almost scary. I spent sometime in therapy. My mom and I frought more after that because I became withdrawn. She began to spy on me, which I hated. I moved out as soon as I was old enough. Had a couple of boyfriends, nothing serious. Tried to distance myself from my parents, we still talk on the phone but I don't see them much. I started dating my current boyfriend two years ago, we live together now and have a puppy. I work as as Call center rep, so basically I'm the person people call when they are mad about how much there bill is and such. Which after three years I am beginning to crack under the stress. but that's pretty much it. Posted on 11/04/09, 10:11 pm |
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Hello there, and welcome to DS :)
I know what you mean about work and cracking under the stress. I work in food service and people will fly off the handle for just about any small reason, even if they have to make up one. Every time I'm with someone or someone I know makes a scene on the phone or at a restaurant and it's insignificant, I always put a stop to it, because people are just doing a job, and they don't deserve to be punching bags. I am sorry to hear about your cousin's death, that is really rough. My best friend in school growing was killed in a car accident, so I can relate to that a little. Growing up with parents who don't get along is very hard as well. Mine never got along either. hugs** Always here if you need to talk :) 
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welcome to DS..there are some great people here and i hope you will find the support that you need here..
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Welcome to DS :)
I'm sorry things have been difficult for you. Here you will find lots of people who can relate to what you're going through.
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Hello, Lacey. Welcome to DS. You have done a great job of introducing yourself. Please click on the following link for some good info for DS newcomers:
http://www.dailystrength.org/c/Dep... I just want to point something out that often surprises newcomers. DS is a PUBLIC forum/website. MUCH of what you put on DS can be found through a search engine like www.google.com and seen by the entire world. DS implores people to not put anything on DS that would identify you. It looks like you might be using your real name .. and that is not advised. Here is what you can do: Submit a feedback form: http://www.dailystrength.org/help/... and ask them to change your name to something more anonymous. Explain you are new to DS and did not realize the ramifications of using your real name. If you do not hear back from them 'soon', I recommend you create a new account (you will need another email address) and refrain from using this one. Sometimes it takes a long time to get any action from DS on such things. Give 'em a couple of weeks to change your DS name and then take your own action. Of course, if you don't care, continue to use this account. I urge you to read over the Terms of Service, Rules of the Road and the HELP page and understand as much as you can about DS and how it works. If you need any help, feel free to PM any CL (explained in the first link above).
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Hi Lacey, I'm sorry to hear about the physical and emotional pain you've had to go through. I really hope you get a chance to pursue your dream of going to college. It sounds like you're job is extremely stressful. No one deserves to be treated like that by others, especially day in and out when you're only doing your job. Hang in there ((hugs))
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