Depression Support Group

One time in highschool I was scared because I wouldn't cry so During lunch I sat in the corner outside and try to make myself cry.

=/ sometime I cant when I really need too.

and on rare occasion I cant stop them.

but that polar bear commercial gets me everytime.

films and tv seem to be the only thing that make me cry, i think they open wounds which i try hard to patch up. but i think its either something sad or a situation that id love to be in but dont i will be in. great post.

I can only cry if I'm not too far in my depression---because I believe that feelings buried alive never die, I think crying is a wonderful outlet. Every so often I can cry when I'm depressed, but when I am in the middle of a profound anxiety attack--and my anxiety can last for days, I can't shed a single tear to save myself. I wish I could cry---oh and by the way I have heard that tears have a healing chemical in them to help you feel better---I've never researched it or anythhing, but it sounds right.

some cry, some don't. think it's genetic. Meds sometimes emotionally constipate me. I think crying is cleansing though. But it still hurts.

I was wondering if anyone in here believes that emotions can be controlled in some manner---because I'm surely sick of feeling so horrible about myself and growing too tired of the constant inner pain and phsical pain of it all. Some times I want to die. Then I realize I could never leave my children with the legacy of a wack job mother who killed herself--that would mess up their life for a very long time. Or maybe I reaaly am as insignificant as I feel. I know, I know, I sound like a pathetic whiner---I guess I just need to know if others feel the same way and if they have been able to control the pain without big time chemicals or booze involved.

not really.

i miss higgins1980

*cries*

T.T

Sarah . . . you are not insignificant. You are very right about the effect your suicide would have on your kids . . . not just b/c they had a "wack job mother" but b/c they would deeply and totally miss your presence in their lives as they grew . . . every time a friend talked about their mom it could be a moment for deep sadness . . . also children often blame themselves when a parent commits suicide--they think they weren't good enough and that you didn't want them or that they did something bad to make you go away

You are not alone in these feelings, you can see that if you read the posts in the crisis center night after night . . .

I do out of frustration or feeling bad. It always helps me.

Don't cry in front of mom or she would get mad at me and start yelling at me to stop.

So, I cry at night when sleeping for the past 12 years.

I used to try to hold in my tears but now I just let it out for everything. For beautiful moments or for sad moments and anything in between. I don't cry everyday by all means but if I feel it inside I found letting it out will make me feel better!!

Sarah you are not a whiner at all. We are all here to talk and share our experiences, and that is all you are doing. Can emotions be controlled? I think they can be chemically through medications, substances, therapy. I don't think any one is doomed to stay in one place forever, life evolves and twists and turns so much. I even think you can change your brain chemistry with prolonged positive thinking and truly changing our points of view.
I hated it when I couldn't cry. I mean it was bad like if someone passed away I still couldn't cry. I felt inhumane. Now it is the opposite, I get big fat baby tears, and even if I am in public I can't stop it. Oh and I do the ugly cry where my face gets all effed up. Thank you all for responding with your interesting life events....