Depression Support Group

I am so down and am starting to feel like ending my life is better. My depression will never get better it is always getting knocked down.

It has only been two days since my I guess now X partner left the note that he couldn't handle our depression.

His stuff is all here and at some point I have to pack it up and ship it. He has unblocked himself off my email and emailed that he will send for it but that is not what I want.

I had a company here today to check the computers and I had to call the X for passwords and I could tell by the tone in his voice he was happy to hear from me.

Why does he do this? This is the second time around.

This phone call and really thrown me off. I feel so down and lonely. I miss him so much already even though we seemed to be growing apart he was still here to talk to and cuddle with sometimes and hug and kiss. All I want to do now is call him. It is taking all my strength not to call.

I feel so sick to my stomach. I just want to sleep forever.

I have to work a lot this coming weekend and week and I just don't want to. I feel too tired and sick.

what do I do??
Posted on 12/04/08, 05:12 pm