Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I've been battling depression since my teens. I was physically and emotionally abused by both my brother and my mother. The last 7 years have been particularly hard for me as I have had to endure one trauma after another. Sometimes I feel so alone and hopeless that I just can't process it. The emotional torment manifests itself in physical reactions. This past week has been particularly rough. On more than one occasion I've found myself on the floor either sobbing , groaning in pain or laughing uncontrollably. I had been tinkering with the idea of doing a photo essay on depression. For some reason, I decided to setup my camera to document my mood. When I played it back, it kinda scared me. I looked (pardon the language) loony. Any of you trekkies out there remember the episode "Dagger of The Mind" ? I remember at the end when the villain dies at the hands of a machine he abused. Doctor McCoy couldn't understand how the person died. Kirk replied that he died of loneliness
"Imagine being totally alone without even a tormentor for company".
That is kind of how I've been lately. And let me tell you, it's not a good place to be :(
"Imagine being totally alone without even a tormentor for company".
That is kind of how I've been lately. And let me tell you, it's not a good place to be :(
I see you're a social worker? Do you mind expanding on what you do? Or what population you work with?
How do you feel about seeking some kind of professional help with your feelings? I ask that because you mentioned how they scare you a bit. You could talk to a physician, a therapist (many of whom are social workers!), a psychologist, and/or a psychiatrist. Part of what I enjoy about therapy with my social worker is that when I'm feeling "looney" or need a sanity check, I can describe my feelings to her and she can tell me if they're appropriate or seem kinda weird (obviously, not with those words!).
I look forward to reading other posts form you.