Depression Support Group

Im 20 years old and was recently told that i have pcos from my doctor becuse my fiance and i are trying to concieve ...i know a lot of ppl may think its too early and im too young but i have been with my b/f since i was 14 years old the first and only b/f i have ever had ...we both work and have money saved and want this really bad ...about 4 years ago i stopped having a period and went to docotr after doctor and no one could tell me y or make my period come back so i found a new doctor and she is great so.. here i am now i was put on metformin last month and 3 days after taking it i had my first period in 4 years it was very heavy and painfull but i was glad to see it come ... i have done a lot of research on pcos and getting pregnant and fertility and these types of things i have a doctors appt on november 12 to see how things r going and to have an internal exam i have lost 17 pounds and im starting to feel better now that i see that there is hope and things out there that will work for me it just take a lil time to find them ..i know i still have a log process ahead of me and getting pregnant isnt going to happen over night im sure ...i want to have a lil baby of my own so bad ...my friends would always tell me u should be glad u dont have a period but at the time i dont think they realized that not having a period means no baby ..and it eats me alive at times and make me feel like i have no purpose here i went through a deep depression and have scars all oveer my body that im very embrassed over and would take back doing if i ever had that chance i have hair groth in place where hair shouldnt be that makes me very self concious ...my face hasnt gained weight my arms my legs and everything look the same as it always has except my stomach and that make me really look funny a lot of times ppl already think im pregnant and im not and that really hurts my feeling im 5'6 and 242 pounds and all my weight is in my midsection i hate going shopping for clothes and get upset because i can never find anything to fit me right ..im 20 years old im suposed to love going shopping ..i see other people pregnant and who have just had babies and it make me almost jealous i feel bad about feeling thats way i know it sounds awful but i cant help it i just want it so bad....does anyone else have these feelings
Posted on 11/05/09, 06:11 pm