i know what your
talking about my sista,and as a ol skool'r in age as well as pain.let me suggust the ol blk /wht approach.it requires a pen /paper,and some serious HONESTY!! write down on one side of the paper the blessings u have in your life i.e.family friends home etc then on the other the things that are slowly making you more dependent on others sometimes,no medical ins,self medicating etc...then as sometimes the pain levels go directly off the chart,we have 2 try and focus on something to take control of the mind set so the pain will be blocked from taking the head on the trip along w/the pain that is totally out of control and controlling my body.so ive tried this focus on someting i csn control even if it's for 5 or 10 minutes.and of course it will become total recall after a few times and you might as well top that side w/all the blessings on them also a good time 2 thank the ALL MIGHTY FATHER,4 is mercy and grace.and b-4 u know it you've increased your spiritual self and gave honor 4 the things that u do have as u go thru this very difficult time in your life. i've dealt w/ this live changing painful madness that has robbed me of more than i can speak of.but young lady please keep yourself surrounded w/ the ones that u can get and give positive energy from.i bet u have family and friends that u love and feel loved and respected from.and if u have or had any surgical procedures that it was know question if there was someone to help you,w/ the regular household things that u aren't able 2 do.so think of those things and remember EVEN A BROKEN CLOCK IS RIGHT TWICE A DAY.r u in a pain program currently? inform your dr. if u know it's harder 2 do things if moreso than b-4.i wish u health wealth and wisdom,your in my prayers..and let me say i commend u 4 knowing u need help,and i
hope if nothing else i want u 2 know that i was attempting 2 keep u encouraged and lend my support and one of my methods that has really been helpful from time 2 time..PEACE!!
