What is Cocaine Addiction
Cocaine addiction is the excessive intake of cocaine, and can result in physiological damage, lethargy, depression, or a potentially fatal overdose. Though the immediate craving to...
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... a drug high on crack is probaly the most intense feeling i've ever had...one i dont wish on anyone and whats so baffling is that it will tell you that its better than the outcome you'll get when you get home and the wife says divorce!!!!..thats what happened this last relapse family..she said divorce and i cried my eyes out as i contemplated the possibility of losing the love of my life...now tonite i'm in bed relaxing with that same wife..married ..thinking very intensely about why crack can decieve me like it does...why it can creep in at that majic moment..8 weeks as it seems now..and begin to talk to me about what it would be like to just " get a piece.."....i have never won that battle of dissillusionment when crack tricked me..whether it was a career..previous marriage..employment...incarceration..etc..etc and tonite i'm pretty mad about the tricks crack has played on me..cause as it stands right this moment.. i dont want no damm crack..but what about tommorow??? ...i'm weighing the costs tonite family..and i guess i gotta weigh the cost everyday for the rest of my life...
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ask yourself, do i think about crack than i do my wife, family, or friends? then ask yourself why is my wife staying with me knowing i love crack than i love her? then ask yourself why am i worried about tomorrow, when i should be staying in today? then ask yourself why have i not surrendered to the disease of addiction when i can win? then ask yourself what am i causing emotional, physical, and mental harm on the people i say i love by using drugs?
when you think you have found the answers, get on your knees, and thank your hp for allowing you to think! because some people use drugs and end up at the point of no return! good luck 
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yea!!!! im still here rooting for you and sharing in your success!!
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For me. It's not about "weighing the costs" of marriage, employment or incarceration against the "intense feeling" of being high. This ain't no logical comparison and defies common sense. See, if you have to stop and "weigh" any of those things before deciding to get high, then you're just setting yourself up. "Cause,,, what if you just had a disagreement with the wife or had a bad day at the job? Well then, wouldn't the act of weighing wife and job at that awkward moment possibly skew thinking its justifiable to pickup? After all, what are the chances of getting caught and doin' time, 1 in a million?
What I mean is that it is dangerous to quit for an external entity, however important they may "weigh" on the logical scale. Craving, compulsion, addiction is not reasonable, logical or make common sense. Try asking the question, if doing coke had no negative repercussions, was both free and legal, would you still do it? If you can honestly answer 'NO' to that question and explain why, then you have figured out for yourself the better things to do, preferable to coke craze. And hey, haven't we all done enough of it already? We can all wear the badge of 'expert' when it comes to that. Having checked out the high, why revisit. We can always recall how it feels if we want. Why bother actually doing it again? Anyway, thanks for you just being there. Appreciate what you do.
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THAT FEELING MAY BE INTENSE, BUT IT ALSO EUPHORIC, AND LASTS ONLY 1 SECOND, THEN THE CHASE IS ON TO OBTAIN THAT EUPHORIC FEELING AGAIN, AND AGAIN, AND AGAIN......THE PROBLEM IS YOU NEVER GET ANOTHER EUPHORIC FEELING AFTER THE INITIAL FIRST ONE, EVERYTHING ELSE IS CHASING A HIGH!!!!!!.
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