What is Cocaine Addiction
Cocaine addiction is the excessive intake of cocaine, and can result in physiological damage, lethargy, depression, or a potentially fatal overdose. Though the immediate craving to...
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I am new to this site and I just wanted to get some feed back on a question that has been on my mind. I could never ask my friends this so I figured I would ask it on here.
I'm 28 years old and have been using cocaine on and off for about the past two years now, maybe a little longer. However I only use it when I go out with friends to parties or small gatherings; which to be honest is usually two weekends out of the month. It is definitely my choice to use when I do but I am never excessive with it. I do drink liquor when I use the coke but I don't do anything else. Sometimes weeks or a month have gone by and I will not have used or even had a desire to get any coke. My using has never affected my job or my relationships (family or personal). So with that being said, I my question is... Though I don't use coke that often and I don't crave it, would I still be considered an addict or just a kid having a little fun every now and again? The reason I am asking this question is because I was with my coworkers recently and they began discussing someone who they all knew who openly uses cocaine. They all spoke very badly about him. Somehow after about 15 minutes of listening to their judgmental rant I found myself chiming in, castigating him right along with them though I use cocaine myself sporadically. After the conversation had ended and we separated I felt very hypocritical, which in turn brought about other feelings of self doubt and self reflection. Any advice or input would be greatly appreciated to assist me in finding some perspective right now. I can’t lie… I’m a little lost. I was so sure of whom I was before that conversation and now I feel that I don’t fully recognize myself. Thanks in advance. Posted on 05/06/09, 01:05 am |
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The only thing I can say is addiction come's on fast you may do it now and then but all of a sudden your there why take that chance? Thats how alot of us started out and we had no intention of becoming addicted we just like having fun and the good feeling. Think about it is this what you want? Now and then turns into every other day and all your money your job your friends Oh and you become that guy that everyone talks about.
I hope You think Good and Hard about it and make the right Choice Life is so Much better without Drugs. Good Luck 
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Like cando said, addiction comes on fast. My ex fiance used for a few years on the odd weekend, he had it all under control or so i thought. He functioned normal, went to work every day & had no cash worries.
Over a year ago he was going through a stressfull time & used coke for just a few nights so he could deal with the stress. A year later he was still saying "just one more night" he never stopped for one night since he took it for those so called few nights of stress. He lost me, his dignity, respect from others & respect for himself. Still that hasnt stopped him, he still goes to work evey day but lives in his own little world & functions ONLY for work. How long that will last is anyones guess but i wouldnt hold my breath. Just a few nights turned him into a full blown addict. Give it up before you end up addicted. Dont ruin your life & the lives of those that love you. Louise
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My story is very similar to Lou's.
My H started using coke sporadically in his early 20's. When I met him he had just turned 30. He was carefree, loved parties, was very social, but smoked a lot of pot. He told me he had tried coke a few times but "it didn't do much for him" Well, little did I know that was an outright lie. My H kept the serious coke addiction a secret and we are now divorcing. He hid it under the guise of being a pothead. He started casual use in his 20's and now he is almost 35. He still functions ok at at work, like Lou's ex, but that won't last long. He's over $200 000 in debt now and I believe he is now resorting to crack because it is cheaper. This is a man who grew up in a very wealthy home, has a loving family, great friends, private school educated and owns a successful computer consulting company which he runs from our home. He now spends most of his time trying to find creative ways to get cash to continue to fund his habit. Take our advice...don't continue to use. You never know where it might lead. It's not worth the potential loss of family, friends and a job. It is slowly killing my H. and had destroyed his personality.
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Wow... Thank you everyone for your replies... I took a personal day today from work to really thinking hard about everything using each of your stories and your advice as a guide.
I realized two things today: First, the fact that I didn't feel comfortable in asking my friends and family the question I posted on here... and the fact that I belittled someone else to unconsciously lie about the fact I use coke means there is a major problem. Secondly, all of you are right... one night turned into two... two nights turned into a full weekend... and in my case a weekend turned into 2 years later and I am still using. I have a problem and I guess subconsciously i didn't want to admit it. I guess I am an addict. But I don't know what to do from this point. I fell really down today and for the first time in 2 years all I have been able do today was think about going out and getting an 8ball, partying with my friends and just forget about this shit. I'm not going to but it is how I am feeling. So... I guess I have a new question... How do I ask for help? Where do I go? I just feel like if anyone finds out everything I have worked on is going to crumble. Thanks again.
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Well you took the first step on getting help by coming here. Take the next step and go to a meeting and check it out you will find other people there that are just like you that want to stop and start over you will find the support you need right there at Home. You don't have to tell anyone if you don't want to that up to you. But I can tell You this if you do give it a chance you will start to see thing's change for the better in your Life but that's up to You are You ready for a better Life?
Why not try it one meeting see what it's all about I wish You all the Best My Friend if you didn't want help you would not be reaching out.
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denial is not just a river. if you can't beat them join them. does any of these sayings ring a bell. i began my awful love affair with drugs with casual use. unfamiliar with the disease i thought i could handle it. i really thought i was a casual user. 20 years later i was a hopeless addict. still had the same pain, and thought that anyone that did not use had a problem! the problem was me.
Watch your co workers. what I have found that anyone that does not understand the disease will bash the addict. anyone that has addiction running ramped in their lives will bash the addict. do not join the crowd, they will be bashing you next. the next wispers you hear will be about you. just some thoughts from a recovering addict. Connecticut
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Omark123,
I am Sooo very happy you are here.. THe use of any street drugs should send up a flag on anyone..Addiction is cunning and baffling and will start sm and end BIG, (Jails, institutions & Death).!!.... You have made the first step!!! :) CONGRATULATES!!!!!!!!! :) Now you have to keep stepping, one foot at a time..lol.... Get to a meeting, you can find a local one by looking in the phone book under NA or AA... Please dont compare yourself by other people and How much they use, just listen to their stories and I bet you will be able to relate to most of them...Stay after the meetings and talk to someone, Go and have Coffee with them... :) Keep us posted in you new Wonderful Journey of Recovery.. :) ((((HUGS)))) Donna e-mail me anytime you need to talk ... :)
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I too was a 'casual user', and would use primarily before/during/after club nights. Weekends, I would have a few drinks, then begin looking for it almost automatically. I lived with someone at the time who was also an addict, and she began saying, let's have some before we clean the house, grocery shop etc. Pretty soon I was using 3+ times a week. This lasted a great while - I was very functional, had two jobs and was responsible with money. My health, however, suffered.
I was lucky I fell in love, which was a big wake-up call for me. I feel as though I lost a good 3 years of my life to the stuff, because I was stuck in a rut and going nowhere. Given my family history, it probably would have gotten worse. I had to really acknowledge it was a problem ( even though it started casually and wasn't using every day) before I could move forward and quit. And it wasn't easy! People use drugs for a reason at first - when you quit it's time to face the music and deal with the things you didn't want to before. Not to mention the friends who still use, etc. Good luck to you, I know what you're going through.
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Your using it and if your not addicted get away from it , run do not walk and get counseling, and I would tell everyone(family ,friends) so it's harder to use if they are friends they will help deter you, um and the ones your hanging out with, stop now. There not your friends.
Friends don't do drugs.Friends don't help you ruin your life, they know and it's hard to believe with all the ads out there that you don't know. No meanness intended, maybe it never sunk in. I have had lots of people in and around my life litterally destroyed thier lives and futures. Choose now! LIFE or eternal death daily.
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I agree with Ancestral i would look into counseling There are sure to be a splattering of drug treatment and drug counseling places near you if you go on google.com and enter drug therapy or drug counseling and add your city and state you are sure to get some results Also most local Health Departments have a drug counseling program if you do not have insurance or are under insured they work on a sliding scale which goes by income.
NA Meetings can be a help too just sitting and listening for a bit Sadly they were not helpful for me where I live but I am sure in most places they cannot be this way we have a small community and most of the meetings are sadly full of those faking it and NOT trying to really make it and it can be unhealthy for those who are trying to get real recovery i have not been back to one in many years in person i do attend a couple online ones though and the Earth Group helped me through a few rough spots. But mostly God got me on the right path I know that is not the path many care to take but it is the one that worked best for me http://www.earthgroupna.org/ http://narecoverychat.org/ this one can help you locate a place in your area http://www.na.org/ Do NOt beat yourself up over having it Believe me it happens to the best of us Coke is a sneak b*tch she is. Most everyone i know Never shot or sniffed or smoked any thing with intent of becoming a full fledged addict. I know i did not
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