Circumcision Support Group

Windigo, I cannot guarantee it, as each person's feelings on this subject are different, but I think that if you look at this, you will find a place where you can contribute to something that will make you feel as if you are helping yourself and helping others. I know that after a long time of desperate pain, I felt that way when I got involved in this.

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Hi Wind,

OK I hear you and I do understand. Normally I wouldn't say something like this right off, but in light if what you say in your post I firmly believe you need some temporary chemical intervention. You are getting into a cycle that could grow worse and very often a mild sedative can break the spiral and let you find some balance. If you keep going as your are the onsession can grow worse and the intervention will need to be stronger.


And one other thought..are you sexually active? A good lover could also help you feel more attached to your penis as it is...

Good luck.

B.

I am sexually active, I have a boyfriend who is very supportive, but being BPD, all it takes is a few minutes alone for me to catapult into a depression. Really, the only thing I've been able to do is try to keep my mind off of it, which isn't exactly possible, considering showering, going to the bathroom, and masturbation can trigger it. I've grown resentful of uncut men to the point where I loath them out of jealousy.

Did you read what I said Windigo?

CBG327, I really don't think you understand this situation. Possibly you are either a girl, an intact guy or a circumcised guy who is in denial about the damage that has been done to you and thinks there is 'nothing wrong with it' and that to realize that circumcision is mutilation is some kind of mental illness. One of the three.

Whichever it is, you may want to educate yourself. Or maybe not. Either way, I threw the suggestion out there. *I* did my job. Just sayin'.

I am uncut, but that's not important. I do have some bad scars from other accidents though. All I want to say is that, as men, we are much more than our cocks, and have a worth that is determined by the size of our souls, not the length of our foreskins. Enjoy what you have talk dirty about your cock, Be glad you can come......I know you are hurt by what happened, but don't let that become your life.

Living well really is the best revenge......

Yeah, I did DepressedEternal, and I have been reading through some of the discussions there.

CBG327 - Since your uncut, you might not really understand how I feel. My feelings are more along the lines of having a permanent scar reminding me that my parents raped me. I suppose It would be like having a scar you got from a car accident where you killed somebody. The scar alone isn't the trauma, it's the association. If I let my mind try to sort the situation in my head, I always end up angry, and just want to yell at my mother and father and curse, and I have on several occasions. I want to get rid of the scar, just to get rid of the association, but it's not possible. How do you fix something like that.. I really don't wanna live my life when every day I hear my mind scream at me that my parents didn't love me, or that i'm not a real man. It's insanity, and it won't die.

I've been thinking lately that when the day comes that my father and mother dies, I will sincerely look at them in their caskets and think good riddance, because they hurt me. The unintentionally raped me. And I know they were ignorant and stupid, but I don't care. It is what it is, and I am just so bitter and angry and angsty all the freaking time. I feel like a dog that goes through each day in such emotional misery that it's inhumane to not just put me down.

I know how you feel. :(

I'm having another bad day today, If anybody feels my pain, I really would like somebody to talk to. I wish that I could just stop thinking about it, and stop hurting myself. If anybody would like to IM me, I would appreciate it. Email me and I'll send my IM info.

Sigh! Windigo and Depressed, You may find comfort in knowing you are not alone. Share your stories. There are too many people that believe no guys are affected by this.
If you are on Facebook, join "People Affected by Circumcision" then request to be friends with the creator (me). I can put you with people that feel your pain. Also, mention this discussion.

Gumbee

hey

my name is matthew, I'm 21 and your story sounds similar to me. I've been thinking alot about circumcision alot for almost a year. I'm just trying to be comfortable by wearing condoms with the tips broken off, to pee through to, to trying to make soft tube underwear to modifying pill bottles. Now I just sent Ron Low, of TLC tugger a message, inquiring about the different models and asking what would work best.

Life is hard right now. I heard that if you're angry at someone, wait 24 hours. If your still angry, confront them. Everytime, though circumcision makes me angry.

other questions pose me like if we're born alone and die alone, where does that leave me? I'm a person that thrives on close relationships, or maybe because of family situations earlier in life, i want to have a close relationship.

It's hard for me too. I often feel alone, even though that there are good people around me. Are we given what we need to survive on, or do we find what we need to survive on? I'm trying to write things that may help, it's also a stream of conciousness too.

what's really helped me in life was working on an organic farm for the summer. I would recommend something like this. I really value the experience, but i'm not sure if i would want to do the same thing again. if you do do something like that, make sure you get along with your co-workers and bosses. Woof ithink it is, organic farming.

What's your passion in life?

For me, I'm really jealous that females have intact genatalia. I'm really trying to work through it.

right now i'm post-poning college, and i'm searching for native american like wisdom. Well, I'm not really sure where I'm going.

it helps to talk things through with friends. i think its valuable to speak what I'm feeling, to try and shed group think. hope this helps, bud.

there's other people like you. I hope to find a mate someday. she's out there, somewhere. one thought is that i could travel around city, state, country or further to find a woman, by working at places that you love. if you do what you love, love will find you. i think that this is all I want in life, is a woman to love. but if she leaves me once i find her, i'll probably be able to get by because i like what I do.

and yes-lol i'm still angry about circumcision. i have a rash over most of my penis, and it's a little swollen because I tried wearing two condoms, to shield it and be comfortable from day to day, but I think it was because I went wild ricing that I got a rash.

I joined this site to reply to your message. take care sir, i hope some of this helps. is there a NORm group near you?