Chronic Pain Support Group

Jesus how much can one person take?? As most of you know, I won my case some time ago and have been waiting for a substantial amount of backpay so I can get the hell out of here and back to Los Angeles. Well first it was coming in October. Then with a lame excuse, November, then beginning of Decemmber, then as of 2 weeks ago should've been any day now. So, as I jump to see the mailman today again NOTHING. I call my attorney who has really been great trying to get this done and the first thing he says is dont kill the messenger. This, of course, means bad news.

Because the amount I am getting is larger than most settlements it needed 3 signatures. Last I was told it was sent on the 22 of December. Now come to find out that the person who was the 3rd signature, REJECTED it and sent it back because of either A. a TYPO (meaning they keyed something in wrong), or the calculation was off. Now it has been sent back to Baltimore and because the supervisor wasnt there he had to speak to an assistant who told him there standard time to 'fix' it was 15 days. Now this person couldnt tell them whether it was a typo or the amount was wrong. So not only do I have to wait hat much longer which likely wont be 15 days the way these idiots have handled it so far, I dont know what the fuck they are doing as far as the amount. Of course my Dad (who you all know is driving me nuts is telling me to be positive, Mr. negative himself); That it could be more than what it was origianly supposed to be which the way things are going, they are going to screw me out of a good sum of it, I just know it. And the thing that burns my as is there is NOTHING I can DO about it. 15 days my ass. I'm going to be stuck her with my family of vultures indefinetly and frankly I cannot take that. I cant. Granted I have started to get my monthly checks, and I think I'm going to have to move into a hotel for my own sanity until this check gets here but at this point, I feel like Alice falling down the rabbit hole and wonder if this check actually exisits. On top of that, I totally disagree with the fee the attorney wants to take because in the 5 years they say on their asses, only in the past 10 months have they actually done anything and gotten anything done. I dont get angry and upset like this anymore. Perhaps in my 20's, but not since then. My blood pressure is up, I cant see my Doc in Los Angeles because I'm stuck here, and I am going to lose my mind. I am at the point where I just dont even give a crap about this money anymore because when will it ever get here? Waiting waiting waiting while stuck in this house in the freezing cold which is killing my RA and Fibro, with a person that I cannot tolerate and can tolerate less and less everyday. The 'contact' person, my lawyer didnt want to give me their number which I can understand because I'm pissed and he might have to deal with them in the future; but he's on the road until Thursday and I cant wait that long for an answer. In the meantime I want to blow my head off to which my Dad responds "make out a will so your mom doesnt get all the money." AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Even though I was in the military and I understand the idiocy of the government, this is just TOO much. I dont think I can wait anymore. I just dont. So I have to waste my monthly check on a hotel to keep my sanity because staying with my Father is going to make me pop a blood vessel in my brain. No amount of xanax is calming me down and I know ya'll cant tell me what I can do but I just needed to vent to my DS family because there's no-one else to talk to that I wont lose my cool with - i.e. social security. Thanks for letting me rant, and if you dont hear from me soon, send someone out to chicago to find me buried in a huge ass pile of snow from passing out via panic attack!

Love, anger, frustration, and opposition to the u.s. social security idiots. - BealteJ
Posted on 01/07/09, 12:01 am