Breakups & Divorce Support Group

iI feel extremely heartbroken because i just broke everything off with my first boyfriend. He said i had too many problems because i have depression and i'm struggling with a cutting problem, but i wasn't depressed unless he did something to hurt my feelings deeply. before we started going out it was evident that we liked each ohter a lot but i noticed this other girl was all over him. I asked him if she liked him and he said yeah, then i asked him do you like her and he said, " I'm attracted to her.....i would like to give her a chance." i felt so shorthanded because i was here before the other girl and so many of my crushes have done that to me. It started to damage self esteem even more. i wanted to cut more than ever when that happened. it still hurts. i still cry about it. i stopped talking to him and then he came back saying he didn't want to be without me, so i started dating him. Things began to get even worse. not even a month went by and he was treating my feelings like they weren't significant. i felt so neglected and hurt. i brokedown. i broke up with him and he seemed like he didn't care. After that he wanted to just be BEST friends. it still didn't work cause he just started to fade. I asked him on Friday if he was busy so he could spend time with me on Saturday, cause i really missed him, but he said he was and it turns out he was going to spend time with his ex.........i said we're not friends anymore either and i don't love him anymore, he said to me that he didn't want me to have strong feelings for him because he didn't have strong feelings for me. my heart snapped in half when he said that, cause all along he kept saying he loved me and never wanted to lose me.......being in love hurts so bad. can't stop crying....
Posted on 10/18/09, 10:10 pm